choose life

I have just thought about it recently.

Whether if it's a career, family, marriage, school, abode, or whatever I have to choose it.

I can choose life by, first of all, live. But not just in a literal means but also as enjoying what this world has. Whether it's going on vacations, sports, seeing nature, or visiting family. I can't imagine my life without the things and the people I love. And also not letting others ruin my plans. If there is a place I really really want to go to but no one else is willing to I probably go by myself. I won't let other people choose for me. Sometimes I would have to be by myself right? New job, new place, or new school I don't have to be with my friends 24/7.

Second thing, at 18 I can (or have to) basically choose life-changing decisions, where I want to serve in the military, where I want to study, where I want to live, do I want to start drinking/smoking? Should I take risks? Should I continue talking to people? How seriously should I take the studies? Yeah obviously I already have some of these questions but it's not as serious as it, is now. Right now I'm just a teenage girl who writes about her thoughts on the Internet but these thoughts one day will turn into real decisions or might be problems.

My main goals right now are; to move out, get married, and repent. Of course, these might and probably be very hard but it will happen one day. 

Think about that some people don't have a choice but to live a hopeless life. Being addicted, being poor, or just being surrounded by people you do not want to.

I hope that one day I will really live the life I want to. I believe god has big plans for me.