idk for how long I can stand this fucked up life in a war.
I want to cry and scream and jump from the highest building I know,
I can't hear anymore about terror attacks, Islamic extremism/ jihadism, "Palestine" or basically anything like that which wants me out of the world, and for what??? for religion, obviously people who don't live here see this more as a land-war but obviously, if this land was given to Christians or Hindus no one would make such a big deal out of it,, territories on earth as been occupied for years and years, new countries will always be a subject that is on,
the reality of being scared to death in your own country is unbelievable. I cannot stop thinking about things like; the destruction of the second Temple, pogroms, WWII, Shomer Homot, the 1st and 2st intifada, the Lebanon war in 2006, Tzok Eitan, Gush Katip, and mostly October 7,
this is Obviously the goods vs the bad. I don't think doing such things to any human is reasonable, thinking about all the families who have gone completely, lonely, young and old fallen soldiers, babies, elderly, disabled, whatnot???
This is not a new problem, people who are suffering from PTSD, disability or physical injury, people who are living in hotels because they don't have a house to go back to, families from Otef Gaza, Bereaved families, holocaust survivors, and many more are getting almost nothing from the countries and must suffer in silence, they have money for war but not for the people who really need it the most, what 100nis a month can help when the cheapest groceries is at least 1000nis a month? Is life going forward or backward?
Today I seriously felt like my life was flashing before my eyes, seeing hundreds of notifications of sirens all over the country and just thinking about all the people I know who live there just made my anxiety rise, besides that, I thought about both of my families that haven't been born here and have to go through so many things I don't even want to imagine. Thought that people who were so close and important to me had real-life troubles only because of their religion, especially my sweet grandpa who was born in Greece in 1929 and I can't imagine my life without her.
If not Israel then where??? Where can I be 100% proud of my religion? Where can I wear a Star of David neckless without feeling afraid? Where can I celebrate my favorite holidays with my family? Where can I speak Hebrew without being afraid? Where can see all kinds of people from all ethnicities that are just like me? Where???
I feel like judgment day is coming faster than I thought it would, which is kinda true... this is Rosh Hashana eve tomorrow...
I cannot stop crying, this took me two hours to just type cause I feel like I am going to pass out with tears in my eyes...
God bless<3
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Anarion998
for real, islamism is a plague on humanity
benny // whalefall
L + ratio + O kudos
the flip dude who are you
by Juno ✡︎; ; Report
...i was looking in the News & Politics section because i don't browse here often enough, i saw this, and,
f#ck you
& your discomfort & your fear & your propaganda
by benny // whalefall; ; Report
yeah see... idk who you are and I'm pretty sure you have no idea what you're talking about..., you literally have a "free Palestine" stamp and have so many links as a "mutual aid" but don't care about normal Israeli-Jewish civilians? I wouldn't be surprised if you're a social experiment, idk why you care so much I'm just a girl defending my country online... support the country you live in or live in the country you support, you can stay mad loll at least I know the truth about life.
by Juno ✡︎; ; Report