first blog post is about blog post lol. so something I've wondered for a while now is: do people actually read blog post? like really. people don't even read youtube descriptions and everyone's got the attention span of a goddam 2 year old. so like who the hell's taking like 20 minutes out of their to read some long ass post made by some stranger on the internet? really, who's doing that? i think ... » Continue Reading
I thought last year was the lowest point of my life. mmmmaaaaan. man I wish that was the case. I wish last year was gonna be the worst of it all but alas! i have gotten about 100 times worse. no one around me believes me when I say I'm depressed and I dont have money so I cant see a professional. I am too depressed to help myself. I truly cant do anything in this state. the urges to hurt myself ... » Continue Reading
i used to get extrEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEMLY depressing over here. it was like bad. but idk at some point i was like hey maybe posting about how you wanna kill yourself all the time is um SILLY AND DUMB AND STUPID. so i decided to purge all those depressing entries and i told myself that i would try to treat this more like a casual myspace blog where i just talk about my silly day or some shit. and that's... » Continue Reading
lol yet another update in the "possibly infected wisdom tooth" saga. so um. i have developed that pulsatile tinnitus shit in my right ear. the same ear that has been hurting alongside my jaw for the last 2 (i think it's technically 3 now) weeks. and it started LITERALLY YESTERDAY??????????? it was either yesterday or the day before. like literally out of nowhere and it comes and goes and shit. it... » Continue Reading
freaking out about the wisdom tooth thing haha. turns out an infected wisdom tooth is a pretty big deal and can be life threatening if untreated. haha. my jaw has been hurting for about 2 weeks before i realized that there was something actually wrong. after days and days of some of the worst jaw pain i've ever felt in my life the pain kinda just went away? and i knew that wasn't normal. so i look... » Continue Reading
i think i'm sick or something???????? my neck and jaw have been on and off hurting all last week and even the week before that. and my right ear has been hurting and feeling clogged for like 2 weeks as well. i've also got the sniffles but to be fair my nose feels stopped up all the damn time even when i'm not sick. the thing about my ears too is i feel like i'm going deaf LOL. i know prolly just c... » Continue Reading
my new guy has a bluetooth feature which is like super cool and stuff because other guy doesn't!! and it works really well!!!! actually TOO well. for some extremely odd reason the volume is like stuck at 100 PERCENT???? and I CAN'T TURN IT DOWN??? so um. ouch. I don't think I'm gonna use the bluetooth feature a lot because I dont wanna go deaf quicker than I already am lol. but man I do live lou... » Continue Reading
so. i've done a really stupid thing. for context; i hate listening to music on my phone because if you're not paying for whatever service you're using you're gonna be forced to listen to usually unskippable ads after every 2 FUCKING SONGS. i hate it. and ever since i bought a cd player i wanted an mp3 player too. so several months ago idk i think it was back in may i bought an mp3 player specific... » Continue Reading
i remember when the trailers for TUA season two dropped and i remember going to the comments section seeing how excited everyone was, but the only thing i could think was "why am i not excited for this? this doesn't look good to me." OH BOY WAS I RIGHT. I WAS SO FUCKING RIGHT. i actually had no idea the 4th season was even out. i actually kinda forgot about it until i was on netflix look for a mo... » Continue Reading
FINALLY. AFTER MONTHS AND MONTHS OF WAITING and being super paranoid that i wasted 50 bucks and it was never coming; THE BOY IS HERE!!!!!!!! i was so excited that i hopped my tired only got five hours of sleep self out of bed to get him out the mailbox. i'm still very tired and my eyes are currently burning as i stare at this screen to write this lol. LOOK A » Continue Reading
I wanna come back to here because having a spacehey makes me feel really cool ngl lol. also I reeeeeeeally like blogging amd like wanna do more casual blogging. it's like so nerdy and fun just talkin bout shit. I want to take another social media break, but like maybe replace social media with blogging maybe? that is just an idea. technically this is still social media but SHHHHHHH it's way cooler... » Continue Reading
blogger. yeah i think i blog here now lol. this page is staying up and is still going to coexist with it but i'm not gonna put serious blogs here. ooooor something. this new thing is not gonna have any mentally ill rambling (i'm lying) and is going to have more like actual blog post. just me talking about topics. i will try to keep it light but if you've read any of the blog » Continue Reading