I really just don't feel alive most of the time. like I just don't feel like I'm here . is this body. looking through these person's eyes. it doesn't feel like anything is really real. mybrain and my body are on different planes. like dimensional planes. like my mind or whatever is in space while my body is experiencing earth. but it doesn't feel like anything to me because im not experiencing the... » Continue Reading
its 3 am. you're struggling to fall asleep, like always. you took your last melatonin pill 2 hours ago and it has yet to do shit. so, like any sane and normal person would do in this situation, you reluctantly type in "boyfriend asmr sleep" in the search bar on the chrome version of YouTube.com and proceed to go through and listen to a bunch by the same guy. it didn't work btw. you still couldn't ... » Continue Reading
I have always had this fear of quitting or being forced to quit art/drawing. and lately it has been looming over me all year. I think I can say without out a doubt that I am in some sort of severe depression right now. I dont need a diagnosis this shit is very apparent lol. every month this year has been me getting worse and worse, hating myself more and more, and doing less and less and less. I f... » Continue Reading
i don't know how to get rid of it. i thought it would be so easy to get off/stay off of it but no. i just can pry myself away. i will stay on for hours and when i get off i don't feel alive and don't know how to function. like i just kinda. dissociate. and it takes forever to come back to reality. my brain is absolutely FUCKED. i've disabled it on my phone and my tablet but i can still access it t... » Continue Reading
i feel like i've been updating here too much. i don't wanna get attached to this place negatively like how i am with every other social media. i'll try to chill out lol. .logo { content:url("https://i.postimg.cc/JzZyr75W/spacehey-star.png") } nav .top { background: color: black; } nav { background: black url(""); } b » Continue Reading
howwww do people maKe their blogs have a different layout???????????? like the blog part of the blog not the profile ykwis????? I MUST KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I NEED MY BLOG TO BE PERSONALIZED I HATE THE PLAIN WHITE AND BLUE I WANT MY BLOGS TO BE COOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! » Continue Reading