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Guilt

Category: Writing and Poetry

When my life stops being mine and becomes absent Stop feeling alive without precedent And I deeply fear not knowing what I want What I think, what I do, what I miss I cry without tears because I don't know what you're telling me New scars I have found And I'm not able to get over it I am afraid to forget and I see that I am incapable To make all the memories no longer hurt Because I am not capable... » Continue Reading

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Jet Black NY's eve

Category: Writing and Poetry

I try to remind myself that I'm still there. I worry that it's getting harder and harder. There is no pain, there is no salvation I just want to feel something again Before my eyes stop looking I can't stop thinking about the comforting electric shock. What gave me my already unaccustomed nerves That morning when I drew suicide diagrams in my arms Swallowing my words and thirsting for my impulses ... » Continue Reading

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Crybaby

Category: Writing and Poetry

The wound doesn't hurt anymore The cut no longer bleeds And I'm starting to worry Well, I usually lose my knife And I begin to doubt my sensitivity I'm very screwed And I feel so lost In a sea of ‚Äč‚Äčmeaningless memories Writing things that I don't even understand But no one must know what may be in my mind In my art it is evident Everything that goes through my mind How much it hurts How much it ov... » Continue Reading

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Complex

Category: Writing and Poetry

If one day you decide to leave There will be no bad thing to tell you Don't think I'll try to make you stay In the end you decided You've been gone for a long time Time has passed since we uttered sober words And it seems that now alone in your room Bleed you have spilled It has been a long time What do you feel now? Flipping through handwritten books Yellowish leaves that carry a portrait As vast... » Continue Reading

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Blood infections

Category: Writing and Poetry

This is what a relapse looks like what a waste I come back to this like it's a habit But it looks so pretty that I'm not complaining. I won't complain if it's not because of the confusion in your eyes sunday morning As a memory of my sad night I find my knife near my pillow As proof of something important I have to clean my room after my depressing weekend. Maybe you want to dance But I feel like ... » Continue Reading

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Hoboken 2007

Category: Blogging

How can I begin to relate this? There are many things that have become important in my life, among them My Chemical Romance, but I couldn't talk about my love for mcr without mentioning what originated it; Frerard. There is something called "seasonal depression" which basically refers to feelings of deep sadness and melancholy that occur only at specific times of the year; We could say that the cl... » Continue Reading

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The Broken Pieces Night (storytime)

Category: Blogging

I have realized that I have only written this in my diary; The first night I stayed up until sunrise by accident and had a forty minute trance because of it. This story begins with an old habit that I acquired during the Easter holidays of this year 2023, which was basically reading frerard fanfics and staying there until three or four in the morning, it was entertaining, on the second of those ni... » Continue Reading

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Curse

Category: Writing and Poetry

Between anxiety and fear There is a strange feeling Of wanting to live a memory that I have not yet created That's why my life happens this way Well I don't know if I die tonight Young and condemned That he keeps cutting his arm I feel like I've betrayed myself Well these cuts don't mean anything With tears flooding the room If I see the gray sky If I feel the cold wind If the past mixes with my p... » Continue Reading

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Fade out

Category: Writing and Poetry

I recently made a guitar string bracelet My room looks more and more great I can't wait for the dawn The cold begins to penetrate my bones and hits my already fucking hip I appreciate the blood on the dress and the paint on my arms Yes, it looks beautiful The knife cuts the drape of skin painted with colors that burn your retina so damn beautiful It cuts it, but it doesn't bleed This once perfect ... » Continue Reading

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Epilogue

Category: Writing and Poetry

Let's go back to the beginning of everything Even before these doors open To the intense cold that crossed through the cuts At the beginning of the memory book That book that begins at the end Ink on my eyes Eyes that want to capture every memory Let's start at the end For all the damage it reminded me of causing Drink vampire blood to strengthen your immune system Does this feel like being forgiv... » Continue Reading

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Uncertainty

Category: Writing and Poetry

Reviewing the usual pages is a habit And I feel like my smile is fading For some reason I feel tired For some reason my time I'm wasting And I feel like time isn't passing My mind is chaos I just wait patiently Something that depends on me I postpone everything for the next day Because my life is not enough Stop messing with my mind Fuck this day Fuck my life What does it matter if I only use the ... » Continue Reading

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Where do we belong?

Category: Writing and Poetry

Some say they see it in hell I'm tired of living so long in the light or should I say darkness? Walking on a path of black roses Crying for an alien love Well I feel like we don't belong here Panic torments me And my eyes start to bleed Next to the damn hymnosis And the cold lights of your city I pray for a cold full moon night While I try not to cry I fall apart in his absence In my lack of abili... » Continue Reading

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