So recently I crashed my car... missed a really important audition for a uni so idk what to do about that. I'm also down to about 18.6 bmi now, so I can no longer chat with mum about my disorder, or the husband. o » Continue Reading
idk what's going on anymore. I just weighed myself a couple days ago and felt 100% on top of the world, I'd lost 9 pounds and it was starting to show, but then I got cocky, and I ate some more and even though I haven't checked I feel heavier. I HATE IT. I can't believe I was so stupid. I want that happy f » Continue Reading
I genuinely look back on my posts and think I might need to send them to my therapist. So...my boyfriend wasn't cheating like I thought, I guess I should put more faith in him, and Bestie, they'd never hurt me like that, they're not awful disgusting human trash like the other guys. I love them both so mu » Continue Reading
My past relationships have been, interesting... I've had a fiancée cheat on me with my best friend, now ex best friend, and I've also had thoughts of cheating, because I was in a relationship with an Andrew Tate fan, but it was still so wrong. So when I got a text from the Boyfriend that he went out drinking with bestie and another broad I didn't know, I, of course, broke down sobbing, almost cu » Continue Reading
I have finished my portfolio, extraordinarily...so now I must do some boring a$$ IT bs before the end of the day. And as you can tell by this blog entry, I don't actually care for it. It's just I don't like doing work that makes me feel like my brain is about to drip out of my ears. When we were doing ou » Continue Reading
I just want to clarify, all of these people are real, but these rumours, are just rumours. This is just what I've heard. I find the Level 2 tutor Mrs Pixie (fake name obvs) very, odd. I had her for my first year, and she was the basic b!tch secondary scho » Continue Reading
My mother is a funny kind of woman, she'll love you, cherish you, but the moment you introduce something unfamiliar to her, ie: non white stuff, lgbtqia+ stuff, she'll fly off the handle. I remember when I came out to her she accused me of faking to fit in, and demanded to know if I thought if I was a boy. I made a tiktok about the situation and it got over 900k views and when she found out s » Continue Reading
Me and my BF sext a LOT. We realised a little while into the relationship that we were rather, into risk taking. He didn't really think about sex that often, and then he got with me and he claims it's all he can think about now. It feels like one of the safest activities we could engage in together. I, due to personal reasons, have never felt safe during intercourse with other people, with him it ... » Continue Reading
In my relationship I have some unspoken rules that my beloved Boyfriend follows without realising. My friends, acquaintances and bullies, also somewhat follow these, nobodies break them. I have fun just ignoring these people, because they are always exactly the same way with how they communicate, they feed off of attention because they're insecure, ugly and cruel, but believe they're the main ch » Continue Reading
I felt awful last night, I was telling my friends on a video call why I wasn't talking to my bf, he thought I was angry at him, but I said I wasn't, that I was just lonely and I didn't know how to deal with my current stability. Then we got onto how lonely I felt when I relapsed, and all he said was "hope you feel better soon"...what?! My friends had a negative reaction to that. then I defended » Continue Reading
My best friend Rob is amazing, I was having a really bad day, and I told her about it, we called and we're still on call right now, I also expressed my feelings about any possible infidelity between my boyfriend and my other bestie and she immediately told me that there would be no possibility of that. And even if it ever did, she'd beat the ever loving shit out of them both before I had the » Continue Reading