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My past relationships have been, interesting... I've had a fiancée cheat on me with my best friend, now ex best friend, and I've also had thoughts of cheating, because I was in a relationship with an Andrew Tate fan, but it was still so wrong. So when I got a text from the Boyfriend that he went out drinking with bestie and another broad I didn't know, I, of course, broke down sobbing, almost cut myself and had to message my therapist "Dr M&M" to just, idk reach out and try not to hurt myself on my mothers birthday of all days.
Bit of background on bestie, they have a mood disorder that hasn't been diagnosed yet. They've also just been dumped by someone because they had "conflicting feelings" about another person...so I'm just not as trusting as I should be of them currently. My Boyfriend is unbearably naive sometimes, like, mostly he's the smartest in the room, but with others and their feelings, he's a dumba$$. And the new b!tch, idk them, so how do ik if they're not gonna try and sleep with my lover?
I'm just worried ig, it makes me sick just to imagine waking up tomorrow with texts from both best and him begging for forgiveness that they should know by now I won't give, because I love him, more than bestie will ever know, and besties like a child to me, and if either of them cross that line, last time I got police on my back about it, I'll gladly give up everything I've worked for if it means euphoria will be mine.
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Mariana
Hey hun I’m sorry you’re going through this, I’ve dealt with something like that and it’s painful, my advice talk to him and tell him you’re uncomfortable with him being around those girls.
Lil-Hentai-Boi
Sorry to hear about this.
I will just let you know that it's okay to feel the way you do since your past relationships messed things up for you.
However, I think you should talk to your boyfriend about these worries you have as it's very important to communicate to each other even if it may be hard from time to time.
Let him know that you are not accusing him for cheating but due to your past you are bothered by the thought of something still happening behind your back and might wake up to "forgive us" messages.
It could help talking about this instead of bottling it up and it could be good for him too to know how you are doing.
Though if he wants to be out drinking with people then he should have the freedom to do so since obviously it wouldn't be healthy to ban him from being with certain people just like that and such but if you two talk maybe you both can come up with something to make these situations easier to deal with.
I dunno exactly what as I'm in no way an expert but this is at least my thoughts about this whole thing and of course you are the one deciding what's best for you to do.
I'm just hoping everything turns out alright.
Take care!