Worst night of my year so far

I felt awful last night, I was telling my friends on a video call why I wasn't talking to my bf, he thought I was angry at him, but I said I wasn't, that I was just lonely and I didn't know how to deal with my current stability. Then we got onto how lonely I felt when I relapsed, and all he said was "hope you feel better soon"...what?! My friends had a negative reaction to that. then I defended him, but turns out, he was listening in on our conversation from the comment about loneliness to my friends getting mad! He didn't hear anything else and texted me an explanation, I went on the warpath to see who snitched until I realised what happened, we needed space after that. Idk how he was...but I was balling my eyes out, Bestie was comforting me the whole time I waited for him. It hurt like hell, and it felt like days rather than hours. 

And then as we started talking, my mother told me and my brother she was stranded in the snow!! She had to leave the car and stay at a friends, AND IT WAS MY CAR SHE USED!!! So my car was somewhere in a faraway town, abandoned for someone to ransack! I told my bf and we immediately made up, knowing that I now had other things to deal with. I have no idea how many times I apologised to him, I messed up big time. I hope he doesn't see me differently now.