The 19 rules of being in my life

In my relationship I have some unspoken rules that my beloved Boyfriend follows without realising. My friends, acquaintances and bullies, also somewhat follow these, nobodies break them. I have fun just ignoring these people, because they are always exactly the same way with how they communicate, they feed off of attention because they're insecure, ugly and cruel, but believe they're the main character, ignore them, they have no one to talk to, they have no narrative, they have no purpose. Easy as pie. 

Back to the rules, they're a simple list that grows with time, this time last year it was started, due to unfortunate circumstances. 

1. Pay me attention, whether good or bad, I want it, because I'm worth your breath
2. Don't comment on my weight, obviously, unless you want me to puke 
3. Don't stare when I eat, in fact don't look at me or my food, look at your own or your friend 
   
4. Don't make any remarks about my progression/regression, it's none of your business 
5. If I cry, you better feel something, and if you don't act your heart out, it's the decent thing to do
6. Don't tell me to stop my coping, but do take note, it may be the last thing I do, you wouldn't want to have knowledge about it and do nothing would you?
7. Also, don't let me know you took note, I may like being awed at but I don't like being monitored 
8. Talk smack...get smacked, obviously...duh
9. Marlboro is my codeword for "I need help hiding a body"
10. When I get my meds, you better keep your mouth shut, no matter if it's positive or negative, unless I've specifically said you can share your opinion, don't 
11. Now I'm sure you know I'm a bit of an eccentric, if I say anything thats dark, but funny, react how you normally would, but if it's too dark and offensive, please tell me I don't need rumours going around because of my ignorance 
12. Tell me I'm pretty when I cry
13. Be funny ffs
14. Don't read my journal, you have this, this is enough for you
15. Hit on me I'll do my BF in front of you while you cry
16. Stare at my scars I'll give you some 
17. Stare at my body and I'll make sure you get some chocolate cake, go on, eat it
18. Screw me over, that's fine, I know people 
19. Finally, break any of these rules, I'll forgive you, but I will never forget it, an eye for an eye

Hope you enjoyed! xx