Car crash

So recently I crashed my car... missed a really important audition for a uni so idk what to do about that.

I'm also down to about 18.6 bmi now, so I can no longer chat with mum about my disorder, or the husband. 

oh yeah, I married my boyfriend in my head on valentines day. it's a thing now.

My mums also been making more comments about wanting me to gain weight, or how I don't eat, or how much exercise I'm now getting thanks to the car wreck. This all just feels like one big mess. And I promised my husband I'd try, but I no longer feel heavy on the scale, so in my mind I'm getting better, I hate that they're trying to stop me, I want this!!

I WANT THIS!

I feel so small, but I don't look it, and that hurts so so soso much.