I havent blogged in 5ever. Well. Hello. Firstly. im on bluesky https://bsky.app/profile/arnanak.bsky.social secondly. hello. i have a new job now. im a free sample person. surprisingly,not like... awful? its making me realize maybe i dont have social anxiety, just agoraphobia and a typical bit of social awkwardness as an autistic person. i have no fear at all when im "in control" of a soc » Continue Reading
I made a new tumblr account to have fun and post hobby stuff but it was suddenly terminated with no communication from staff. so. back to searching for new sites. i briefly considered spacehey again but then i see the top blog is ranting about xenogenders and i kind of feel sorry for all of you for giving so many shits about the private lives of others. ive gotten a pillowfort account and may use ... » Continue Reading
https://www.tumblr.com/maldersgate3 Made a new tumblr account. meant to be a side thing but quickly becoming my main. no memes, no shitposts, no politics, just blogging and hobby posting. its nice because i can drop more random stuff on there with images, unlike the more longform stuff here. going to a furbowl tomorrow. my agoraphobia isnt screaming quite yet, which is a good sign. irl fandom spa... » Continue Reading
I wish my landlord told me that the entire apartment was having its siding redone,the constant loud noises outside are quite annoying. It's frustrating to be doing laundry and suddenly the wall next to you is shaking because someone is hitting the outside wall with a hammer and it's shaking the wall and rattling everything in the closet. Luckily my PTSD is behaving well, so it is not particularly ... » Continue Reading
I have bad brainfog and I'm gonna try to get better. That's why I haven't been active here. I can not focus on reading at all. I can't process it. I'm gonna try a few things. I will update on if they work. My IDEAL PLAN is any but preferably all of the following: --- Use social media less. And when I do use it, using it thoughtfully rathed than mindlessly scrolling. Browsing art good, scrolling wh... » Continue Reading
The other day there was a congressional hearing regarding UAPs and I watched it live. I've only seen jokes about it and people mentioning it without having seen it. But I watched the full thing as it happened. As much as I want to be hyped by someone under oath saying that UFOs and the nonhuman biological entities within them have been captured by the United States... I just don't believe that it'... » Continue Reading
Been a while since I posted a blog. Because I haven't had much to blog about. But tomorrow I am leaving to go stay at my MIL's and dogsit for a week while they're on vacation. I'll be all alone. It will be the longest time that I've spent apart from my partner in several years. Hopefully I won't be too bored. I'm just straight up bringing my PC so I'll be able to digitally draw and play video game... » Continue Reading
Howdy! Back from Anthrocon a day early because I realized I kinda... Didn't have to stay at the hotel overnight and leave in the morning. I could just leave early. So I did. I'll need to write a huge retrospective at some point. I'll link it here but I'll probably host it on FurAffinity as I'm an adult who attended some adult panels and thus I need to ensure that only adults read my post about it.... » Continue Reading
yknow the "I HEARR A SOUNDDD (its probably just a mouse)" fnaf song called you cant hide? the run run fnaf song? mama hates you tattletail? That guy! he performed at AC and i got a shirt and he signed it and i got pics with him!! yayyy!!! i recorded a lot of the concert and i'll post it to youtube later! he also noticed me during the concert because i was standing at the side of the stage by mysel... » Continue Reading
Being trans and having a dream where you're in the correct body is definitely Something. Painful. Great in the moment. Usually in these dreams I find a mirror and see myself then stare into it. And that's all I do, sometimes. Just take a good long look at myself. I'll eventually leave, either running to tell my partner the good news or to resume whatever the dreams main plot was or something. But... » Continue Reading
note i'm talking about the united states and also this isn't a big important essay where i lay things out perfectly pls read in good faith im just a rambling dudeblogger. - A lot of social issues regarding gender and sexuality would be helped by feminism, if you ask me. No one truly comprehends how deeply misogyny runs. Like, okay, we all know feminism is to help women. But people really don't get... » Continue Reading