"bruh i'm so sick oh lord"
22, US (sadly), chronically online n chronically ill
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Category: Movies, TV, Celebrities
i got bored af at work and started making these dumbass collages. pls use them on ur blogs with credit if possible!! » Continue Reading
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Category: News and Politics
this is only semi-political, but i'd love to get some feedback and discussion with others. i have a severe and difficult to manage personality disorder. at my worst, i have been a VERY bad person. someone who was drinking, doing certain substances, lying, not working or going to class, etc. i have borderline personality disorder, and i was diagnosed about 2 years ago. i've been seen and had my dia... » Continue Reading
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Category: Parties and Nightlife
this is completely subjective, but i am curious about public perception to this. i stopped partying after turning 21 simply because i was sick and tired of being hungover, drunk, etc. and now, at nearly 23, i can't imagine going back to partying. my partner and i went out for new years and neither of us drink or do any illicit substances. we got to talking about how old is too old to be clubbing/p... » Continue Reading
Category: Religion and Philosophy
hey cuties, i do a tarot reading on the first day of each new year, and since it's all snowy and wet where i'm at, i decided to make it a whole event for the day!! i lit some candles, and laid out my tarot mat. this mat is energetically cleansed, so i'm able to do a reading anywhere. i focus on mediating on one randomly drawn card at either the beginning or end of a session, just to give myself a... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
it's getting bad again. i can feel it. it's hidden in the waking up at 3 pm. it's hidden in the fact that a shower feels like a pilgrimage; i know it will cleanse me, but at what sacrifice. i'm not reading. i'm not writing. i'm not doing much of anything. as a very mentally ill person, i've been here many times. and i've been able to get out of them all (somehow). here are the steps to fix it: st... » Continue Reading
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Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes
heyyy besties it's almost 2025 I'm going to be making a non-comprehensive list of what I hope to achieve in the new year, especially since putting it here on a site i use a lot may help me to actually check in on those goals more regularly Financial Goals: -I want to get a 3 month emergency fund built up before 2026 ($4000 approx. in savings) -I want to use my debit card as much as possible, hopef... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
does anyone else feel like there's a constant glooming pressure of death hehe I feel like the moment I let my mind wander, there's this immediate drawing to things that are dark, and considered sad/taboo in most circles. I don't want to always be the friend bringing up Kafka or Camus, but I really can't understand how people are able to exist every day without a constant nagging of pain and sadnes... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
hey my cuties, my name is Matti, and I'm living as a disabled person in the US, meaning I'm basically in the unlocked tenth circle of hell. I have borderline personality disorder and major depressive disorder, which I was diagnosed with in 2022 after a hospital stay. I was diagnosed with multiple physical ailments this year, including: -fibromyalgia -chronic fatigue syndrome -adult onset asthma ... » Continue Reading
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