my dad scheduled a fancy dinner tonight for our entire family which im super excited for since i havent gone out for dinner with my family in ages and my boyfriend was also invited this time!! we are going to this really nice place and i have been super poor since ive moved out from my dad and hes making more so its going to be really weird to sit in that environment again but im so excited that ... » Continue Reading
i did it. i finally finished it after days of procrastinating, working hard, trying to get my shit together, and not even eating. i have lived off of french fries for the past week trying to finish this shit because it was the only thing that wasn't time-consuming to make. it was 15 pages by the time i was done. my prof is extremely strict, so even though i put my best effort into this to flesh i... » Continue Reading
god i just dont want to do it im sitting here crying about it right now because not only have i procrastinated it until now but i just still dont even wanna do it i have always loved english and i have gotten amazing grades all throughout highschool (even in ap classes) but now that im in college i fucking hate this so much this professor actually makes me want to die ive never done so horribly ... » Continue Reading
i wrote this with the image in mind of seeing a spaceship! check it out! https://nottheseason.bandcamp.com/track/woah-a-spaceship its the first time in my opinion that ive written something worthwhile i mean i feel like it would be good for in a game or something idk but let me know what you think!! » Continue Reading
the one that got away oh my god this one is so long lololol but its about an old man looking back on the woman he wished he spent more time with i dont know why i wrote it but yeah so this one is about an old man writing a letter to his lover from years previous he didnt care for her properly, give her his full attention, he dismissed her, then one day he left her out of no where later he realize... » Continue Reading
the full moon we didnt see this one is about... you guessed it! my mom lol im sorry for all the poems about her, shes my best muse. i think of her constantly and i want to keep her alive in the imagery of my writing the greasy fish we fried and ate and you would even eat the bones you sliced my filet into pieces and when you crunched, scrunched up my nose » Continue Reading
you answered the phone yet another poem because i never ever get tired of writing them this one is about a day that i had 7 years ago, someone special was there for me and i still remember it and feel incredibly happy thinking about it stuck in a bathroom stall not sure what to do, who to call what is wrong? everything is wrong but you answered the phone called everybody w » Continue Reading
current feelings: i feel really overwhelmed with school right now my essay was extended and so was my presentation and i think i might have done okay on my bio test yesterday but im just so worried all my dreams will be crushed by my own stupidity especially with finals coming up will i ever reach the potential i see in myself? my eng prof is incredibly strict about grading and i keep messing up ... » Continue Reading
the dream I know im posting a lot but i just joined this and i wanted to have at least 3 on my profile on the first day, plus im bored so im posting some old poems! » Continue Reading
you were a friend another poem about my mom spoon to mouth shaking hand i sit on the ottoman quivering jaw patient smile are you scared? terrified the corn is growing so are the weeds choking out the flower seedlings choking out the hope of us i do it for the both of us that night i sat on the ottoman and did what you have done before a milli » Continue Reading
fourth of july a poem about my mom you didn't see fireworks on fourth of july we watched them together though every year previous not this year mother, this year you died you sit in a box on the dining room table on halloween we won't go trick or treating ill sit at home eating the candy you loved the white cloth they wrapped you in when you stopped breathing dressed up as a » Continue Reading
i just wanted to use this to announce what im planning to post on here!!!! x3 recipes, botany, taxidermy stuff, language learning updates, music updates, venting, etc! its so nice to have a place on the internet that feels so nostalgic and not bloated like most sites also nice to not have to worry about people from irl knowing me on here so i can just vent and nobody will probably even care!! m... » Continue Reading