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Category: Friends
If you did not bother to read my profile or blogs that isokay. i will say it here that i am a very negative person. i use this space as a place to vent. sometimes it gets traction, it usually doesnt. both i do not mind because i am just trying to share my thoughts. i delete them eventually anyways haha. im not proud of these blogs. i personally think this is considered attention seeking, but that... » Continue Reading
Category: School, College, University
HELLO the phone law is very generous!! we can use our phones pretty much everywhere except in the classrooms! hell yeah!!!! im at lunch right now so i can talk about my day ! so far haha (ill update this when its over) so class wise it kinda Sucks. i have to sit with people i was once close with .auuughh… and i also have to deal with people bullying this one girl . which is a shame because she’s ... » Continue Reading
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i get the things i want , they piss me off. i get the things i dont want , they still piss me off. i dont think i deserve anything until i get my emotions together . i have so many things i want and dont want but i do not need them . for instance , a boyfriend! i dont deserve one . i want someone to prefer me over everyone and everything! i dont deserve that either . i dont deserve anything . bec... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
ive been told many times by many people that im lost . that i dont know what exactly it is i want . i guess that is true . i dont relaly know anything unless its something bad . but i think it was all in my head . ithink i made everything up . I dont really think anyone cares as much as i think they do . no one is out to get me im very irrelevant . and thats okay i dontreally want anyone caring so... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
very much so on the verge of giving up with everyone and everything a little more everyday!!!!! if i were living alone this would be so much easier but no I have to be all happy joyous whimsy so no one worries about me cause i hate it when my family worries about me cause theyll just start blaming thesmevles like everyone else i know like fuckoff you should Get it by nowthis is My fault and you h... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
i am not changing and no one can convince me. there is an unfortunate possibility that making people feel bad makes me feel good and if that is the case then im doomed! someone told me a lot of things i needed to hear and all it did was make me mad. i was laughing to myself joking about it and i didnt really listen to what they had to say. and its infuriating! cause all i do is vent and cry about ... » Continue Reading
Category: Romance and Relationships
i dated 1 person online a few years ago which was great until i pretty much left them for someone irl. i dated that person for 2 years and we were on and off until i forced them to get with someone else due to me being insecure and passive. i then broke them up sometime around this year which resulted in his life being totally ruined. he was cheating on his gf with me but i seriously cannot blame ... » Continue Reading
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Category: Friends
I cannot stand it when I text someone and they just . dont respond until im actually doing something. Bonus points if they respond after a double text. like why even bother? texting people is already hard for me but youre just going to leave me be until im busy? i sit at home and do nothing All day for a big majority of days but the 1 time i do something its "oh hey jonie how are you!!!" like wtf!... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
for some reason me and my 50 thousand flaws have found it really difficult to accept someone else's flaws. which is really stupid because everyone ive felt this way towards actively improved themselves and have shown to be much better people. better than i couldve ever been. And this is 10x more stupid because whatever it is i dont like ive done it twice as much. and i havent changed a bit! im a H... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
a while ago someone i know saw my blogs on here and reached out to me after years of not talking to me , blaming themselves for my misery or whatever. someone i know irl did the same exact thing today! and i think that is so Fucking Stupid Man what do you mean "its my fault youre like this"? the hell did you do?? im so sick of everyone thinking its their fault im like this . or assuming my lack of... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
ive done a lot of things to a lot of people that i regret . i dont know if theyre really that big of a deal , but everytime someone talks to me in a non positive way it just kills me . i convince myself they dont care and that they hate me , even if they said otherwise 20 times . i wont believe them. i think i have trust issues. its hard to believe anyone who says they care when they take so long ... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
im never going to Change . i think its stupid that anyone has the audacity to care for me , a lost cause . ive told so many people about my flaws yet they all told me that i have potential to change . that im “going to change” . ive convinced myself im not . im unlovable , and that small part of me that is is extremely shortlived . its selfish of me to want someone caring when im going to just bri... » Continue Reading
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