hypocrisy

for some reason me and my 50 thousand flaws have found it really difficult to accept someone else's flaws. which is really stupid because everyone ive felt this way towards actively improved themselves and have shown to be much better people. better than i couldve ever been. And this is 10x more stupid because whatever it is i dont like ive done it twice as much. and i havent changed a bit! im a Hypocrite. im a nasty hypocrite and ive rightfully been told that by many people. "werent you getting on me for doing the exact same thing youre doing right now?" i get that a lot. and i hate it so much. thats a big reason why i hate arguing with people which is unfortunate for me because somehow i am really good at starting arguments (unintentionally). i also suck at arguing in general. im always losing in them. womp womp

thisis why i just want to  be a quiet little loser who doesnt judge anyone at all and always keeps everything to herself. ive tried being this many times but i let my emotions win Everytime and end up embarrassing myself . this has happened ever since i started school . online , irl , it does not really matter. everyone i know has a story of me being embarrassing. and theyve laughed about it at least once. Which i mean i dont blame them. no one ever took *me* seriously