i dont know

ive been told many times by many people that im lost . that i dont know what exactly it is i want . i guess that is true . i dont relaly know anything unless its something bad . but i think it was all in my head . ithink i made everything up . I dont really think anyone cares as much as i think they do . no one is out to get me im very irrelevant . and thats okay i dontreally want anyone caring so much . but i alsowant to be someone;s preference i dont know its very confusing i dont really know what it is i want. i throw a bunch of things around and none of them satisfy me . idontknowwwwwwwww i just want to figure it out

everytime i distract myself its great and fine until that stupid feeling i get comes out and im hurting and itchy and mean. i hate hate hate it . i just hope i dont show it in real life auuueuuuuughghgh........................... i dont know .

speaking of real life school is tomorrow i hate everything i cant have my phone im going to die AAAUHG