06/03/24 a lot has happened, me and my ex friend had a little conversation the other day, she fucking said that she has no feelings about what happened, like BITCH EVERYTHING WAS YOUR FAULT, well that made me feel really bad and NOW my ex said that i forced someone to kiss me (i never kissed them) i have been very sad lately, really sad, for like everything that has happened and more, i am all alo... » Continue Reading
1/03/24 there's this girl in my class who sat next to me he first day of school, i already told that story but what i did not tell was that she was my gf in 2018 and that she was my best friend too, but then we never spoke again in years but now, we are just clicking again, she is wonderful and she said today that wanted someone to kiss but she has a boyfriend but they are a long distance relation... » Continue Reading
29/02/24 so today was my first day at school and a pretty girl sat next to me, she was exactly my type, she was perfect, so feminine and pretty and cute, she draws us as fruits and she draw meee but anyways it was a good day, i was all alone in recess anyways, nobody talked to me, not even a hi, but i don't really care anyways, it wasn't like fun but i draw a lot, like a lot, i have a lot of ideas... » Continue Reading
28/02/24 in less than 10 hours im going to wake up to go to school for my fist day of the last year of school, i cant lie, im really excitred but i am terrified too, i hate the people there and a lot of people hate me too i have evreything ready, my backpack and uniform, i know that when i wake up im gonna dress and put on makeup now im going to smoke a cig and sleep ( sleep » Continue Reading
27/02/24 i have no motivation to play any games, i want to play chaos:head so bad but i don't feel like playing any games and a actually i don't even have the motivation to play minecraft that is one of the games that i play every day for years but still, i can't find the motivation to see a movie or read a book, i just want to draw and listen to music and just watch the ceiling for hours and i th... » Continue Reading
26/02/24 i have been waking up really early in the middle of the night, like 3 am or 7 am type of thing, sometimes i can go back to sleep or sometimes i go into the pc and i play some game or something, idk; why its been happening? and i think im going to a psychosis state again thanks to my dreams, now my dreams are just memories of somethings that have already happened and is so boring, the only... » Continue Reading
26/02/24 In three days i enter my first day of school and every year i sit in the same seat, the last and in a corner that is my seat and every year i go to school 30 minutes early so i can get that seat the problem is that i have no friends and where i study the seats are for two, so my only resource was asking an ex friend to sit with me and she was so pleased, she really wanted to sit with me f... » Continue Reading