NO MOTIVATION (and a music and books talk)

27/02/24

i have no motivation to play any games, i want to play chaos:head so bad but i don't feel like playing any games and a actually i don't even have the motivation to play minecraft that is one of the games that i play every day for years but still, i can't find the motivation to see a movie or read a book, i just want to draw and listen to music and just watch the ceiling for hours and i think im really happy recently but i just think i am in a manic episode again, where i feel good but i still feel wrongly depressed, i force myself to interact with a lot of people but still don't have the energy to do anything

anyways, i have been listening a lot of the sundays and the smiths recently, they are not my type of music at all but i really enjoy it, i tried to red twilight a little bit and i couldn't concentrate at all until i put the sundays on, so that was a good idea

what type of music do you guys listen to while reading? i usually put some soundtrack of a movie or an ost of a game. i read so much types of books that it actually depends a lot on what music im reading, for example i would put classical music while reading dracula but i would put the soundtrack of twilight while reading twilight (duh)

i have acquired this books that is the sequel of one book that i read in like two days but again, i have no motivation or if i have a minimum motivation it is just gone when i open the book, it happens a lot with videogames too, i start the game and pum i don't want to play anymore, i want to play silent hill 3 for so long but i just cant, plus the camera movement is just weird so it is so weird playing it