i will never not be afraid of people. sure i have moments where i think i don't care about what anyone thinks, but deep down i do. i hate caring about opinions. why do i care? i lose nothing by some random person hating my outfit or my personality. literally doesn't do anything. it's all in my head. but im in my head too. i love rambling on here, i can say the most random nonsensical thing and no... » Continue Reading
it's so rare for this to happen but i can't seem to get comfortable suddenly. i at least got 7 hours but that is not enough for me i need like 10. LET ME GO BACK TO SLEEP DAMNIT- also it doesn't help that it's raining almost constantly from the hurricane, rain makes me sleepy. » Continue Reading
i hate when im looking at someone's profile and im like "omg we're so alike they seem super chill we should be friends" and then i see "dni 18+" and have to dejectedly click off. edit: people keep thinking im complaining that minors don't want to interact with adults, that's not my point. im complaining that i see a cool person id like to be friends with but then realizing they don't want to talk... » Continue Reading
after like 6 years of not watching anime im finally deciding to watch it again. i was never really "into" it but id passively watch it when my friend at the time put it on. i just feel happy thinking about it, i love finding new things to fixate on, right now it's lucky star it's so cute and silly. » Continue Reading
these entitled fucking truck unload workers think they can just demand to get paid more and screw over everyone else because they don't get paid top dollar. news flash, no one else is getting paid good either, you're not special. i understand being unhappy with your pay, but if you want more money, get another goddamn job. you want 75% more than what you get? are you out of your fucking mind??? yo... » Continue Reading
i have been violently coughing for a month straight. i don't know why, i have never had a cough for this long. one time i coughed so hard i through up out of my nose, and last night i almost threw up again. sometimes i'll cough so much it gives me headaches, and sometimes it turns into full body aches. what the fuck. why me. the 4 other people in the house were sick last month, and i seemed to be ... » Continue Reading
halloween is my fav holiday, but i haven't been able to do anything for it for years. i haven't had enough money to dress up or even decorate, and i don't have any friends to spend it with anymore. it's depressing as shit. i think my last real halloween was around 6 years ago. if i could i would give up all my birthdays to celebrate halloween. i don't get cool stuff anymore anyway since im an adul... » Continue Reading
what even is identity? i have no clue myself. my identity feels like the things im into, like my favorite media, because i feel those interests to a super high degree, it's why i change my identity so often, or my theme/aesthetic ig. just a couple months ago i was deadset on being openly "cringe" forever, like openly being a therian, feeling physical pain from not being able to run around in the f... » Continue Reading