no halloween... again

halloween is my fav holiday, but i haven't been able to do anything for it for years. i haven't had enough money to dress up or even decorate, and i don't have any friends to spend it with anymore. it's depressing as shit. i think my last real halloween was around 6 years ago. if i could i would give up all my birthdays to celebrate halloween. i don't get cool stuff anymore anyway since im an adult and people don't celebrate your birthday when you're an adult for some reason.