I went to school with a rlly bad stomach ache, i didnt think much of it until it was too late. My stomach was ACHING the entire day, it hurt so bad i could hardly breathe. anyways, like the title said. It was pe n i left my stuff unattended for a while to talk with some friends. I saw a group of "the boyzzz" checking out my tablet, presumably to check the time and along the way, they saw my wallp... » Continue Reading
TW: SH AND MENTIONS OF SUICIDE I think this week is gonna be the worst week ever n it's just Tuesday. Yesterday [24.7.23], I woke up in a bad mood. I don't remember much that's happened (shortest memory ever recorded omfg) but all I can remember is that during assembly, I looked down on the balcony n thought of jumping off (suicide ofc). But I didn't, not bc I snapped back to reality but because ... » Continue Reading
We were gonna go out to the beach until a relative called my mom to eat. My n my brother didn't wanna go so my mom went herself. She came back home crying n telling us that they managed to remember her birthday (her birthday was on the 21st) while we, her own family, didn't. We felt rlly bad n decided to hug her. Feelsbadman :( We went to the beach shortly after that. It was HOT as hell, my brain ... » Continue Reading
Today was fun but exhausting. I wasn't there for assembly like the usual, but i could hear an announcement abt a fire drill training. It was unexpected but the drill happened during history class n we were all forced to assemble at the school field. It was hot and i already felt sick and dizzy. I managed to pull through the entire day because the firefighters took like 3-4 hours to explain shit so... » Continue Reading
Everyone's been talking abt their gfs n bfs/crushes lately. I'm not jealous cuz no one at school is attractive to me (lol srry) but the idea of not having a bf made me feel lonelier. I wish i could find someone i can love n obsess over arghhh (。╯︵╰。) but it also kind of scares me cuz of my obsessive tendencies n abandonment issues. n talking to ppl is already mentally draining and anxiety-inducing... » Continue Reading
this week was rlly good :3 its science n maths week but i dont participate in some of the activities. This week i got to attend school for 4 days straight!! (tmr im def going to school too!! » Continue Reading
(sorry) WAAAAA muse is so autism banddd i luv them sm. goofy funny guys X3 i luv matt chris n dom theyre so skrunkly heheh (∩˃ω˂∩)♡♡♡♡ » Continue Reading
This week is gonna be a busy week... we're having a long weekend from wednesday to friday and we're given 2 projects to finish within these 5 days. rlly stressful this monday, the principal announced smth abt porn sites cus apparently some ppl were doing so AT SCHOOL. after school, i was going down the stairs with this one girl who has a history of sh (yeah shes the same person who stalked me n go... » Continue Reading
I've just been rlly depressed lately. I've not been able to brush my teeth in like 3 weeks, I did brush them alternatively though between a week idk. Either way, that's not my point. I seriously don't know what to think. Ever since the the school sh event from like 5-6 weeks ago, I just feel like I do things for no purpose at all. It feels like nobody believes what I say. It's like they're telling... » Continue Reading
exams r over yay!!!! Last paper was maths n it went bad, im 100% sure im gonna fail lol. anyways, ive just bought white and black yarn yesterday n i saw a snoopy amigurumi, i wanna make one so bad actually i have so many things i wanna make, miffy bag charm, heart bag, messenger bag (a different type) AAAAAAAAAA sm!! (⁄ ⁄>⁄ ▽ ⁄ » Continue Reading
im scared. next weeks gonna be the hardest exams i face. geography n science yknow. ive not been studying a lot n have been missing school (due to mental health problems) n exams r starting to be more intimidating. i feel like ive written this already lol but doesnt matter cuz im still feeling it... yesterday, i went out with a cute outfit n my new legwarmers that arrived recently, i wish i had t... » Continue Reading
This week was extremely good and extremely bad. idk how to explain it. extremely good: - bought some new stuff for my wardrobe - finally opening up to new people (online not irl unfortunately) - its a holiday - found a new hobby (crocheting!!) - its pride month!!!! extremely bad: - depressive episode - social anxiety (ive also realised that im extremely awkward (╥﹏╥)) - i have exams next » Continue Reading