Fire drill training (17.7.23)

Today was fun but exhausting. I wasn't there for assembly like the usual, but i could hear an announcement abt a fire drill training. It was unexpected but the drill happened during history class n we were all forced to assemble at the school field. It was hot and i already felt sick and dizzy. I managed to pull through the entire day because the firefighters took like 3-4 hours to explain shit so i endured it cuz it'd be a pity. 

I didnt focus much on the speech so im most likely to die in a fire-engulfed building, but all i can remember were photos of dead bodies and some basic knowledge abt escaping the building n shutting off the fire. n after all that speech some students n teachers got to try the fire hydrants as demonstration. I didnt get to try tho cus they only had three (｡╯︵╰｡)

We didnt get recess throughout the entire thing so we got a one-hour lunch after all that!! i didnt eat tho so i stayed reading in the library :3

anyways, i felt breathless during the last two classes. I just wanted to go home. I felt hungry too. 

I also thought abt how lonely i am now. sure i have some ppl i can talk to but i just dont feel the same connection as i was with my last fp :( also bc the thought of being single still lingered in my head lol. I almost broke down because of these thoughts... i wish i could find someone to overshare to, its been a long time since ive told anyone abt my favey topics :(

after school, the new pakistani girl talked to me n asked me abt my first impression of her. I thought she'd never ask but ive always wanted to tell her how offended i felt when i came to school that very day. by "offended", i didnt mean i was RLLY MAD at her, its up to her if she wants to initiate a convo anyways n she admitted herself that she made friends that day bc other ppl initiated a convo with her. I was just "offended" cus i assumed that she was told some bad stuff abt me n got turned off by that. n i rlly like meeting new ppl, i just have rlly bad social anxiety so i also assumed that she was inconsiderate at that.

but shes a nice girl after all, shes fun to talk to (* ^ ω ^)