"trying to try"
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...dealer's choice... blog series these are attempts to convey strong thoughts. they are numbered only to show chronology, as there are definitely shifts over the course of these blogs. 1) word vmoit: gender and internet » Continue Reading
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Category: Writing and Poetry
im scatter brained my eyes two shattered panes still stinging from the blunt trauma of yesterday scared to step in any which way for even matter wanes; an uncertain wave like quarks and rains i don't get how i behave a tattered weather vane a battered compass spinning wildly eclectic hectic can't stick to one topic get stuck still crave to be a freight train barreling through but i am no jugger... » Continue Reading
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Category: Writing and Poetry
heheheghegh giggles the could be woman to himself at night unasleep unable unsettled onset craze tired tries to try then tried then tired only not "then" but "as" linearization time nonexistent nonnonexistent nonbinary no two ways about it yes infinite ways about it not which way- not how or why or what i guess no question, then. meanwhile, she sees others she sees himself seeing others she see... » Continue Reading
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Category: Writing and Poetry
a fly or a moth striking again and again at a bright warmth crushing itself against a shut portal a roach or a spider writhing in the pain of each survived murder rising again with one less leg a brave, inquisitive ant eternally lost in a tiny pantry tiny ganglia brain struggling to recall just how or why it got there small persistent stupid... doesn't know any better doesn't know it's in a box ... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
hey spacehey, today i: had a hard time getting out of bed, but i did it drove to school, parked in lot 70 brought my guitar to physics. did a demonstration/narration on harmonics, tension, and beat frequency. played some guitar outside and this one girl seemed to like it but her bf showed up and so she kinda stopped listening. oh well, with an audience of 0, i at least made myself feel a little b... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
dear spacehey, you ever been totally lost? so you run around, genuinely trying to figure out where you are, and then somehow you've run in a circle? how am i STILL living with my parents and their expectations STILL missing out on events and social life STILL struggling to pursue any of my passions STILL procrastinating STILL in a vicious sleep deprivation cycle STILL too scared to just wear wha... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
i don't think this loneliness is bothering me so much as it is just slightly pestering me. and these days, everything that barely annoys me makes me wanna induce a fatal injury. like, if i have the slight urge to talk to someone who cares about me, odds are nobody's free. or if i'm absolutely crashing out, well, that's something i gotta deal with on my own. or if i just want to do something fun ... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
i love watching videos. of people doing shit because they wanted to like dancing or singing or making music or hitting sick tricks on skateboards i love skater and breakdancing culture because it's all about street hype. about being exceptional and showing it... i love to make music. but it's kind of a hard thing for me not that i lack the skills or knowledge i just struggle to make things i wan » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
one of my favorite experiences in the human condition is discovering that i am repeating myself. just in general. imagine hiking forever and ever in a line, hardly looking back and only looking forward, only to find that the line was actually a circle and that your net movement was 0. it's when you finally notice that you're stuck. or lost. or when you realize you've done something already when yo... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
hey spacehey! as someone on the destiny debate discord server once said, utility is not a scalar. that is, quality and beneficiality cannot be measured with a number line or 1-dimensional spectrum. so when i say august was a 9/10, that is a large generalization. just as the following words will be, since i can only remember so much. but rest assured, august gets an A. work schedule and work life ... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
hey spacehey! i'm back for an unsolicited monthly report on the going-ons of my existence. i legitmately forgot what happened in july so i'm going off of existing records (mostly just messages to a friend about my day). unfortunately, this often doesn't account for most of the mundanities of life, which will all be forgotten. week 1; review of 3-body problem made some money doing a gig with my ban... » Continue Reading
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Category: Fashion, Style, Shopping
for my birthday yesterday, me and my besties ( vernaband ) went thrifting. need i say more?? big shirt big pants (like, really big) jorts over jeans (contemporary artwork, daresay?) » Continue Reading
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