JULY SUMMARY; 8/10

hey spacehey!

i'm back for an unsolicited monthly report on the going-ons of my existence.

i legitmately forgot what happened in july so i'm going off of existing records (mostly just messages to a friend about my day). unfortunately, this often doesn't account for most of the mundanities of life, which will all be forgotten.

week 1; review of 3-body problem

made some money doing a gig with my band, made some observations on the progress of AI r&d, stressed out quite a bit over my job, and started reading 3-body problem.

3-body problem has been my favorite book series since dune. it's really fucking good. people talk trash on it's character writing and story, but i think that's kind of missing a point. the characters and the earthling storylines are just a tiny piece of a bigger 'story,' that story being the progression of the universe and of living things (i.e. that which continues to reproduce itself).

people also say that the world-building and ideas in 3-body are interesting. i think this is a massive understatement. the ideas are interesting because they're innately poetic. just as the seemingly mundane, abstract science/logic concepts in the book form a story.

week 2; UCI orientation

as some of you may or may not know, i will be attending UCI starting this fall as a biological sciences major. thus, i had to attend a mandatory overnight summer orientation.

here are the highlights (i actually remember these):

• i wore a dress the first day and a miku tshirt the second day. i got a few compliments but plenty more weird looks.
• nolan you are cool. you are very quiet but somehow i always understand what you are saying. you seem to do the same for me as well. also we both like monster hunter. i also really appreciate that you bear with silence.
• kyle you are cool. you puzzle me a little bit. your aesthetic is solid and you make yourself seem like a simple character on the outside. but you can't hide the complexity of human nature my friend. also, i want my hair to do what your hair does. which is, muddle the gender a bit without looking like you try too hard. idk. i hope you don't read this ever. although you did say you hated reading. if you do read this though please get off tiktok ik you're on that sh 24/7/365.
• bio sci advisors are chill but not as helpful as i would've liked.
• large social events or gatherings of any kind freak me out. i just can't handle the large volume of people and the eyes and the what-ifs and whatnot. it's stressful. so many scripts, so much acting, so many people on different planes and levels, so much intersection. accidents happen at intersections. and it's stressful.

good time overall, it was especially nice to be sleeping at a place far away from my parents without thinking about home. 

week 3; work training

mmm nothing like getting up at 3:30 to catch the 4 a.m. bus to get to work by 4:40 for my 5 a.m. opening shift! 

work is... well, work. i don't think i could do its description justice. i go, i invest myself in some arbitrary challenges and goals, i occasionally disappoint my coworkers with my sloppiness or surprise them with kindness and helpfulness, i grow impatient and tired as time ticks by, and lastly i feel the sweet release of my shfit being over. i interact with customers and sometimes they make me nervous. there's this one girl who comes and orders a blonde shaken espresso and she out here piercing me with eye contact, a slightly deeper voice, and slightly slow annunciation, as well as some sass (?) PLUS the heavy makeup like damn you scare me more than my manager and all you be doin is being pretty ordering coffee after school. 

as you can see, random mundanities and social interactions such as this make up the majority of my life lol. i wonder if i make other people nervous in a similar way. probably lol.

i will say, ever since i started working i've been happier. because i've been able to reduce things to: work, blast kpop otw home, play games, read book, produce music, sleep. every day i work comes with an established sense of tension and release. i am forced into routineness and social interaction. employment is taking better care of me than i was. 

week 4; birthday, more work

my birthday was nice. i played a gig and hung out with my besties. thrifted some new clothes too. my dad ruined it at the end but that's to be expected.

i had work. 

other comments on july

i hung out with a certain friend twice in july. that was nice.

i spend a decent amount of time calling and playing games with one of my best friends. also helped (tried to help) him with his struggles with his ex. being there for someone is tough work.

one of my coworkers had to quit work because her family demands had suddenly increased. she's cool though and i like her a lot... she kinda poured her heart out to me abt her current life affairs and a recent breakup and whatnot. on my end, it's nice to be trusted and also to try to help / just listen. but on her end, sadge.

i had a lot of good outfits this month. i posted them in a blog already, but you can check on them there if you like. more coming too!

also man im busy busy busy busy busy

anyhow

i think thats it from me 

cya!