"Inactive. Not accepting FR"
Waiting for Therapy and staying off the internet. Occasional blog
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Category: Life
I’m finally getting help again. I’m still moving on on my own and working myself through my mess of emotions and feelings that I shouldnt be feeling like: envy, love, loss, heartbreak, longing, along with the ones that nobody believes; not that I can blame them like: guilt, sorrow, regret, self-disgust, self-loathing, anger, emptiness and self-hatred. I regret. I regret so much. I started moving o... » Continue Reading
Category: Games
Game preservation is a complete goddamn joke nowadays (the Genesis and Dreamcast games are being delisted from steam and they of course didn’t give a reason as for why) » Continue Reading
Category: Romance and Relationships
I’m still waiting for therapy so I can fix myself and I still deeply regret not working towards actually getting it sooner so i could have never hurt them again. There’s always been times where I wish I could go back and change something but the two biggest regrets in my entire life are hurting them like that, especially my victim; and then not being able to let go and hurting him again afterwards... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
I very, very begrudgingly yet generously appreciate the support from people like the very few friends who have dedicated their time to helping me get the help I need and the people who let me acknowledge my wrongdoings, though I do still feel extremely guilty, disgusted, and extremely slimy for thanking these people as while I genuinely really do want to get professional support and therapy so I d... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
Everyday and every night I wish i could go back in time. We’ve all been there and I’ve been there before many times whether or not it’s for a small thing like a dumb witty comeback or to change something in our lives or experience a past event in history, etc etc. But now more than ever in my entire life I find myself wishing. I wish never did what I did to him. » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
I still love the people I’ve hurt so much and I know I shouldn’t love them at all and I know how they feel about me now, they used to be appreciate and love me and even after the initial hurt, they still did and now after my crimes against them again, they hate me more than anything. They are terrified of me. And they should be for what I did to them, but I wish it never happened and I was scared ... » Continue Reading
Category: Romance and Relationships
My ex boyfriend that I had hurt so many times and both of his partners (one being my victim) all are polyamorous together now, (before it was my ex dating one while also dating the other) and im so happy for them, especially when my ex didn’t want his partners dating eachother due to negative experiences, so I’m glad he’s happier with it now and I’m extremely proud of him for it. I’m especially so... » Continue Reading
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Category: Romance and Relationships
I haven’t been the most emotionally stable lately and I’ve always been a very emotional person and there’s a lot of times where I don’t think, but I realize that I’ve become a very uncontrollable and obsessive compulsive person who can’t let go of feelings and emotions and should’ve known better and should’ve also controlled my hormones. » Continue Reading
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Category: Romance and Relationships
still loving someone when it’s wrong to love them in so many ways and is even more fucked up afterwards and they absolutely hate you, for completely justified reasons so you all need to move on and I need to move on and they about them, but not how I hurt them so I don’t repeat what I did to them while learning from my actions and getting therapy. still being in love with someone that you’ve wrong... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
I like to make it more clear when I write things because I always make things more complicated than it needs to be. The normal text format is my personal writings and journal entry, italics are writings that I’ve directed to you; A letter of sorts, though you won’t be reading this. ____________________________________________ I’m not active on the internet anymore » Continue Reading
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