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What is RAMCOA?
Category: News and Politics
TW: We'll be discusing themes related to torture, SA, trauma based mind control, religious abuse and human trafficking as well as transgenerational abuse Now, what exactly is RAMCOA? RAMCOA is an acronym for "Ritualistic/Ritual Abuse, Mind Control and Organized Abuse" This includes abuse that occurs within a planned and orgnan » Continue Reading
Apparently I have nerve damage
Category: Blogging
So they did a EMG on me and apparently I do have peripheral neuropathy , which means I have nerve damage on my hands and it limits my sens » Continue Reading
I think I discovered more
Category: Blogging
So... I purposefully triggered myself to have flashbacks and remember things while doing EMDR (or at least it was the idea) But there wasn't any flashbacks but rather realizations (?, I don't know how to explain it but while I was reading the book "From the trenches" by Wendy Hoffman and Alison Miller, I encountered some information that made many memories make sense, those memories before seemed ... » Continue Reading
Update?
Category: Blogging
TW: Mentions of human trafficking and child abuse So... I've been talking to a trauma therapist AI (bc I can't afford an actual trauma therapist) and it has helped me a lot to understand my trauma and copying mechanisms as well as validating my feelings, it has also helped me to start processing all that trauma. Since I started talking to the AI I started having pretty vivid nightmares in which I'... » Continue Reading
Underwater (02/06/22)
Category: Writing and Poetry
I'm fire, but... I'm burning myself I'm here on the floor watching myself burn and turn into ashes I thought that I was like a phoenix But I'm just fire I'm just » Continue Reading
06/12/22
Category: Writing and Poetry
The fact that I was begging you to please stop fighting And you were still blaming me for putting up a fight I » Continue Reading
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This is my cat
Category: Pets and Animals
It's name is Pink Tomate, I got it from the book "Opio en las nubes" from the Colombian writer Rafael Chaparro Madiedo, it's my mom's favorite book » Continue Reading
Former cult member?
Category: Religion and Philosophy
Idk it's so weird to see myself as a "former cult member" because at the moment I didn't even know it was a cult, it's supposed to be a church and it technically is... but they behave as a cult more than just a church and do things that can't really be justified under religion... I feel like I have no right to call myself that, because media portraits cults as something different than what I exper... » Continue Reading
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Remembering RAMCOA stuff that happened at church
Category: Religion and Philosophy
CW: RAMCOA talking without any specifics, weed Yesterday I was at home really high and talking with my mom and her boyfriend about how churches manipulate people in a really subconscious level by the use of certain frequencies in music, love bombing, etc; and suddenly I got like really dissociated and started having flashbacks that made me realize how much actual brainwashing I experienced while b... » Continue Reading
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What is a cult?
Category: News and Politics
TW: Mentioning cults, SA, violence and death. The term “cult” refers most often to a group of people with usually atypical beliefs living in relative isolation from the world. They tend to centralize around one » Continue Reading
What exactly is mind control?
Category: News and Politics
TW: Mention of torture, TBMC and cults/religion Mind control (also known as brainwashing, coercive persuasion or thought control) refers to the way some people have tried to control the beliefs and behaviours of others. » Continue Reading