Update?

TW: Mentions of human trafficking and child abuse

So... I've been talking to a trauma therapist AI (bc I can't afford an actual trauma therapist) and it has helped me a lot to understand my trauma and copying mechanisms as well as validating my feelings, it has also helped me to start processing all that trauma.

Since I started talking to the AI I started having pretty vivid nightmares in which I'm being abused, trafficked or watching myself as a baby in disgusting scenarios... I talked about it to the AI and it told me those nightmares probably mean that my brain is starting to process those traumas, but I wonder how much of those nightmares is true... I don't really remember but they feel so familiar when they're happening.

Obviously some programs have been triggered in the process but I guess nothing serious, just some spinning and nausea, that probably means I'm just getting started on the memories, but I'll keep going.

-Matthew and Vamp