"yawning"
rawring 20s // NYC // hispanic
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Category: Life
the ball of life has started to roll FAR in onlly just a few months.,.., i have news news anndddd moreeee newsssss for my friends back home when i speak with them next week. life this year has really started moving... but it feels like it hasnt at the exact same time. i have done things ive wanted for YEARS if u have been my blog mutual for a wh » Continue Reading
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Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes
the hamster wheel I've been endlessly stuck on, seems to have an end? an upmost random easy way out of my current living situation has been presented to me out of the blue, I'm conflicted different struggles will be presented to me, but it cant be worse that what I've already been going through.. i hope its not a fluke.. » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
recently i tried lowering my screentime to 3ish hours, its been four days (i'm struggling) every time i have a day off i'm forced to sit with myself & remember everything i am not. i clean my space just to find old hobbies i could not keep up with, projects i kept procrastinating, & the self image of my mere existence that has slowly decayed into nothing. » Continue Reading
Category: Games
i hate everything about how MY brain works i built this pc right, everything I've wanted for years, all by myself, and its like. now that's its built i feel nothing. shits been completed for like weeks and i haven't touched a single thing? idk what's wrong w me. i just use it as i did with my macbook when it wa » Continue Reading
Category: Life
remember like a few years ago when everything was just so exciting & making new friends was so fun?? yeah what the fuck happened to that?? is it me, growing up, or is that wonder for life just never existed? actually wait. nostalgia is the biggest gaslighter i wish to force mys » Continue Reading
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes
as Yves once said lmfao but fr i honestly believe i could grow so much in a span of 6 months if i just was able to live alone within that time. my mental health, my ability to function, my personality, it all is dependent on who i share this room with. its literally burning my braincells. like bruhh I'm gonna st » Continue Reading
Category: Friends
i found myself to feel that familiar sadness that creeps around when i know my time with someone is coming to an end. the same questions i ask myself are always: did i tell them how much i appreciate them? do they know? do they care? will i ever see them again? » Continue Reading
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes
hiuii are you guys still alive? i am.. this year has gotten the right foot ahead, i actually accomplished a very long standing goal of mine!!!!! i built a mf pc!!! all on my own which was undoubtably... a journey... a very frustrating one to say the least. lol. i texted about two people for help (on the dumbest things lowkey) & that was huge b » Continue Reading
Category: Jobs, Work, Careers
for the past month.. actually nah, for almost a YEAR i've been putting off taking a test to get my food handlers permit that i need for my job (idk how they have not fired me yet) that being said i have not been studying all this time, although i knew i've been needing to take this test since last october. what's even more insane is that i already took this test once, early spring this year, and ... » Continue Reading
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Category: Fashion, Style, Shopping
getting ready for my day and i'm just sat on here wondering how i feel. like do i wanna be my usual every day person or do i wanna wear makeup for a change (it's nerve wrecking for some reason?) every day i do a low effort look. not much fucks are given but whenever there's an event i'm attending or just when i know i'll see a lot of people i know it makes me stand and question . do i wanna go th... » Continue Reading
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Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes
don't get me wrong, i am not a fan of going to work every day but being alone at home just really sparks nothing in me. i have zero discipline to get myself to do anything, huge mental blockage leading my life when i don't have a reason to do anything.. how do people do life. i will die like this i fear. body { background-color: black; } img { filter: sepia(100%) hue-rotate(0de » Continue Reading
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Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes
hobbies. it's all in my head. i do so much thinking and collecting yet zero action in my day to day. in my pinterest boards i'm a whole different person, i have a different style, i do so many things, have so much saturation in my life, but offline, i'm unmoved. why? is it money? » Continue Reading
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