MAJOR timeskip...

the ball of life has started to roll FAR in onlly just a few months.,.., i have news news anndddd moreeee newsssss for my friends back home when i speak with them next week.

life this year has really started moving... but it feels like it hasnt at the exact same time.

i have done things ive wanted for YEARS

if u have been my blog mutual for a while u know ive been going through it... but this is finally a positive update.

DRUMROLLLLLLLLL

THING 1. 

MY PC HAS BEEN BUILT (this was at the start of the year) but still i wanted this for so fucking long. i sstill have yet to be happy like REALLY deservingly happy about it.\ or pplay anything on it... im only procrastinating bc i have plans..... that cannot be discussed rn....

THING 2.

 i am in a serious..... real.... actual.... r e l a t i o n s h i p.....

what the HELLY.

like actually whaat the hell. i am Not a relationship person. well i *was* not. when i told my best friend from back in my hs hometown her jaw was on the fucking ground. my mother thought i was ace. my online friends thought i was lying. my coworkers thought this mf was just my friend.

I WAS a GENUINE hater of dating.

but it happened. im veryyyyy happy with my partner :3 and im soooo happy we met organically.

im ngl i still have no idea whats going on like what do u mean we are together. and i like you.. and u like me? and... yeah??? what. okay.

THING 3. 

holy shit guys. i Moved the FUCK OUT!!!!!

how did this happen???????? i have NOOO CLUEEEEEEE.

actually i do! heres what happened: (summed up)

my cousin needed a roomate due to personal mishaps... and well asked me to move in. i said hell yeah! the fuck!!!!! im here now :p

THING 4.. 

I DYED MY HAIR PURPLE

THE SOULICORE COLOR

I WANTED THIS FOR YEARRSSSSSSS

LASTLY

i still feel like i have a lot to do this year. stability... adulting... hobbies... passions.... so much

and i wish to feel the emotions i need to feel. i want to be present. i want to be proud. i want to be myself again. or find myself for the first time.

thats my main mission.. amongst other side quests...

thats all i have for nowwwww

thank u for reading my random life shit

goodnight :p