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hiuii are you guys still alive?
i am..
this year has gotten the right foot ahead, i actually accomplished a very long standing goal of mine!!!!! i built a mf pc!!! all on my own which was undoubtably... a journey... a very frustrating one to say the least. lol.
i texted about two people for help (on the dumbest things lowkey) & that was huge because i genuinely hate asking for help. well i did embarrass myself a bit. bbbbut hey! its done! & unlike every other year so far in the life of soulicore, i actually have goals to follow. so far i am genuine when i say i think (????) i feel proud of myself. imposter syndrome & depression may steal my ability to self reflect with emotions involved but i can logically say it probably ,makes sense to be proud.
one thing i def am doing that is well... maybe confusing? concerning? a little isolating? just the pure fact that i am not sharing with anyone what what my plans are, what im doing like, ever, & what im proud of myself for/ if i am feeling that way..
something about it is just so freeing though, i mean, i feel like if i dont tell anyone what im doing before the progress is fully made, they cant take that away from me...
like maybe its a superstition of mine, something similar to the eye of evil, but i feel like everything i do has a huge chance in the ability to fail under the gaze of someone else's eyes &thoughts, so im scared of that. i want to build myself up so fully & securely that when i actually tell people what ive done, if i ever do, their mere eyes cant touch me.
but uhhh that also makes me sound like im hallucinating. well idk
anyway, i hope youre all having a good month of january 2025. please tell me your life plans & such, i may have some trust issues but im super nosy and will secure your info in my little brain for fun.
that is all :3 stay positive! (i hate when my friends tell me that shit)
okay gpppdbye lmfao
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Midnyte
Hiii I'm an active member >:3
Anyways, congrats on the pc!! One of my goals this year is to build a pc as well. On the whole superstition of not sharing, I think it's totally valid. Besides your still sharing your achievements once you reach them it seems
haiii omg i was hoping this website wasnt dead;
pc builds are so exciting!! i hope you get to start soon C:
also! my pc was very anticipated! my achievements being shared are another thing!
career wise, ive never been very much a future onlooker, ive had a very fogged up image of the next few years in my entire life, but the painting is starting to sketch out finally. i just wish to finish my beginner stages i guess before even opening my world to everyone else. idk. its kind of annoying though i do wish i enjoyed the yapping of myself irl..
goodluck with it all!
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