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Category: Romance and Relationships
the result of my attempt at dating was.... a great big ghost of everyone i talked to. i don't think i'm cut out for dating. i've realized that i need a LOT more alone time than most people do, which results in many, many unanswered messages on my part. even though i explained to everyone i talked to that i can be distant, i don't think they really understood the extent. i'm just. not good at this.... » Continue Reading
Category: Romance and Relationships
well, there was bound to be a blog post where i vent about my love life eventually, right? i live in a place with a weird age demographic that skews towards older people, and being a 22 year old, i find it hard to talk to people my age. it feels like every person who shows an interest in me annoys me in some way. ugh i recently talked to a guy who wouldn't stop talking about sexual topics and it j... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
I'm currently on a journey of learning how to be more likeable, or just generally less off-putting. People find my demeanor odd because I always wear a flat expression and have a "dead-sounding voice". For this reason, I began trying to change how how I come off, exaggerating my inflections and forcing smiles, but I think this may be even worse because other people can see how fake it is. I'm rea... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
I am a terrible conversationalist; I find it incredibly difficult to talk to new people unless we are on a very similar mental wavelength. I recently listened to a video about improving one's conversation skills and it mentioned that being able to show vulnerability was an important aspect in opening up to people. Of course, that makes perfect sense! It's so simple, but... I have no desire to be v... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
I posted a video last week that got a lot of views and it's kind of torturing me mentally for no reason. All of the comments are nice, there's an overall positive response, and some of the comments made me really happy. But there's something within me that hates it, I can tell because I feel something vaguely rotten inside. whenever I start to get like this I compulsively pluck at my eyebrow. I'm ... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
I saw a blog entry on here that was from someone saying they didn't want Palestinians or Muslims to interact with them. I was shocked by this hateful sentiment. I live in America, but ethnically I am Palestinian. My mother has strong morals against lying, and is the reason why I am so honest now. Growing up, the only lie that I ever heard from her was about our ethnicity: she would tell people th... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
I've always been fascinated by paradoxes. A statement that contradicts itself seems false by nature, but I find paradoxes in many aspects of my own identity. Identity ties together different aspects of personality, interests, and characteristics into a relevant whole, making each person unique. Our ego serves to protect our identity. I think about ego quite often, partially because I think I am so... » Continue Reading
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes
I've always liked journaling, but especially in a quiet, albeit public space like this. I don't consider myself a strong writer, but I do like to share my thoughts for some reason. Maybe it's a part of loneliness. Maybe it's some deep desire to be heard, but to not fall on enough ears to be noticed. I have friends, people who invite me out and find my presence lifting. Even still, I have trouble r... » Continue Reading
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Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes
I have a lot of trouble putting my thoughts into words. I think about things like life and death quite often (as most overthinkers do). Yesterday I was thinking about defiance and conformity, and how these concepts are paradoxically both living and dying. If you conform to (a capitalist) society's expectations of how you should live your life--working a dead end job to earn money to live-- you ar... » Continue Reading
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