idk i feel really intimidated playing fps games because its not my style at all lol but honestly tf2 has been really fun and im starting 2 get the hang of it! im still playing on bot servers cuz im too embarssed 2 play online yet lul @-@ its so cool how the characters like kinda talk 2 each other, maybe im just stupid and i dont play a lotta games but i havent seen that before. i also luv scout an... » Continue Reading
i used 2 daydream steven from steven universe would come and tell me everything would be okay when i was crying cuz my parents were arguing » Continue Reading
tw: mentions of human faeces, violence at home ive got my typing quirk off so you know its a serious blog post lolol so for those of you who dont know from my previous blogs, i have three younger brothers two of which are well.... i guess very disabled? not in the fact that they cant walk or are paralyzed or anything like that. rather they have servere learning issues and becuase of their autism t... » Continue Reading
yesterday sucked, and i wasnt really expecting it to. i decided to hang out with that friend who i think has a crush on me? honestly, i did it more becuase i didnt really have anything else to do and i thought it would be fun to go and revisit places around my town before i move. if you saw my last entry, you would have know that out of the blue randomly in the evening my mum came in cuz i reblo... » Continue Reading
usually dont use the politics category on here but i thought id share since this happened like 15 mins ago. i prolly wont talk about politics ever again on here tho okay so im super pro Palestine, anti trump anti biden and just anti authoritarian and government in general. i think trump is WORSE than biden, but biden is terrible. im not even a us citizen, but those are my opinions. okay so ofc wi... » Continue Reading
its been... worse, lately. the entire feeling of feeling like things not mattering and the fear of seeing dates and how long ago things were is coming back to haunt me. i think the reason why it was gone for a little while is because i had pure hope for the future agian. now, its more complicated. seeing future years and times and knowing how long ago things were and will be makes my inner self cr... » Continue Reading
sure, the calmness of life was great after so long but... i was so numb. i felt like paper. and honestly, id rather have my chronophobia exploding in my face and scaring me to death than for all my love to disappear. if you've read my diary entry, you know my passion and love is something very important to me. it holds my dreams and my fate of my future, i cant let that go for a second. it was lik... » Continue Reading
does this fall under art if its cosplay? so yesterday i wanted 2 get a jumper 2 go out with and i checked my madotsuki cosplay, when i realised that the hanger it was on had stretched the neckhole 2 be WAY 2 big. it went down all the way 2 my chest. then i realised that it had stretched way 2 much at this point, like it looked really weird on my body. it made my torso look way bigger than my head... » Continue Reading
and by playing i mean pirating it on my pc with pscx2 i FINALLY got it 2 work agian, i just had 2 reinstall the whole game but..... it saved like ALL my progress??? i honestly dunno how that happened, but anways i havent played any of the silent hill games before, but i quickly looked up 2 see if i needed 2 play silent hill 1 before 2 but it said that this one was its own story so i just downloade... » Continue Reading
cut the right side of my hair becuase its become this big annoying blob of hair thats literally causing me to have my head leaning LMAO. so i cut it. how does hair growth work after bleaching? cuz i swear my bleached hairs getting longer or sumthing. its prolly getting moved by the roots. anyways i kinda got a reverse tomboy sidetail cut going on that ive given myself. im keeping my hair less tha... » Continue Reading
and the worst part is that my mum watched that movie and literally said it was soooo wrong of meis mother 2 embarrass mei like that... then like 2 years l8r after watching that movie she DOES THAT TO ME. she went through my camera roll and found pictures of the semi internet celeb id been crushing on and acussed me of watching porn and messages old guys or SUMTHING like DUDE. i havent even come ou... » Continue Reading