I dont take kinning super seriously !! these r just characters I relate to a lot, I see kinning as a way to express myself & get to know myself nd others I do not literally see myself as these charactrs1! Names in bold are my top kins// Characters I relate to ona deep level,, I'm a little more 'intense' abt them. » Continue Reading
I want to look as small as I feel. I'm even starving myself to be smaller. You could crush me under your finger. I'm nothing compared to you » Continue Reading
I let myself shrivel up under the unforgiving scorching sun. for a thing like me, posing as a human, all I can do is waste away in this world. letting myself melt into the ground and be reclaimed by the dirt that formed me. not taking from the world, not giving in, not sucking the fruits of life and indulging in my gluttonous desires, not taking space or time or energy. feeding on myself like t... » Continue Reading
i think ive been addicted to destroying my life ever since i was a young child tbh. i dont remember the last time i properly valued my life but it was probably around 10/11 and honestly i think part of the reason i love self-sabotaging so much is because of that reason. even then ive always been a huge coward and full of anxiety so i never did anything too risky, but the more time goes on the more... » Continue Reading
a serpent that endlessly eats itself. its what I am. a paradox. a neverending cycle of self sabotage. an empty soda can on the floor. a dirty rag discarded in the sink. an ant that's been stomped to death. a cacophony takes over my mind , it draws me deeper into myself , moving me like a black hole a voice becons to me » Continue Reading
like im dead fucking serious fix this shit now I've tried editing my profile like 5 times and every time it reverts back to the original and discards my changes. my profile is blank now n I cant add back the assets I had previously THIS HAPPENS ALL THE TIME its the most frustrating shit ever same with blogs bc when I tried uploading my graphics collection to my blog it kept giving me 404 warnings... » Continue Reading
theres gonna be a lot of typos and misspelling like usual bc idgaf also yes this is a vent ok so ive been wanting to make a blog about the state of my life and my brain but i keep putting it off (becuz huge procrastination » Continue Reading
Once, I was loved. It was a love that felt like the first bloom of spring. I cherished it. I wanted to protect that love. I wanted to protect my lover. I had never grown flowers by myself before. I didn't know how to maintain their life. I didn't know the signs. She was so patient, she accepted me even when I fell short. She told me we would do it all. She taught me things I never knew before. I... » Continue Reading
I don't know if I'm moving backwards or fowards anymore. I feel asthough I've hit a wall in my development,. I thought I was getting better but as time goes on I realize I'm just the same. I'm a bitter, unhappy person. I wonder if I even know how to exist without this sickness. I don't know if I can. This is the only way I know how to be.. I don't know how to love myself. It's scary. I'm afraid of... » Continue Reading