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Category: Life
2025-01-11 I'm writing this here because I just feel too weak to get up, grab my notebook and write it all down there. Don't worry, I'm not in danger. I didn't get a sugar crash severe enough to land me in a hospital nor did I faint, I just simply got my period, and periods are, as most women will know, painful. Incredibly p » Continue Reading
Category: Writing and Poetry
I was heading off to university, sitting on the bus and browsing FaceBook. I seldom ever did that, but there were massive traffic jams these days. The day was cold and snowy, typical Colorado, but one of the posts showed a story from the sunny land of Hollywoob. I was never really the type of person to be interested in the lives of Hollywood, Hollywoo OR Hollywoob stars. I liked watching things, ... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
This year, it hasn't been the worst. Maybe even the second best in my life, right after 2016. But there's one thing. I don't wanna be 20. I wanna be a kid again. Today, I was playing with my sister. We messed around and were incredibly silly. We played games that would probably be shunned when I was a kid, like kick the baby or Johnny Johnny. These were so... nice. So warm. It felt as if something... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
So here's what I got this year! :3 Just a warning: I grew up poor but I am no longer poor, so these might be a bit excessive for some people that get smaller things so don't read if you get jealous haha.. – make up - I got an eyeshadow palette, purple eyeliner, a set of lipglosses & a "temporary" teal hairdye ( » Continue Reading
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Category: Movies, TV, Celebrities
Hello guys, today I'd like to talk about an important issue that I know many of you struggle with too. Depression. Often we forget that depression is just like asthma or epilepsy - a chronic illness, and so are most of the mental conditions. I » Continue Reading
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Category: Pets and Animals
Dear Santa Claus, the Bringer of Christmas Cheer. I am writing to tell you what I would like to get for Christmas. Just remember to read til the very end, 'cause nothing on top is half as important to me as the last thing. I would really l » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
Look at the parents status statistics. Most of the Disney princesses' trauma is losing one or both parents, which is I would say quite rare IRL. There's a similar tendency in anime. But you know what is fucking underrepresented yet really common IRL?! Having both parents, they're married, but living in horrible conditions like poverty. No » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
Hello sweetheart (s), this is Your mother at age 18. I just really want to tell You how wanted You are. I'm just 18 and I'm not trying for a child yet, however, if I would accidentally end up pregnant, I would be overjoyed either way. I don't know what the future will bring, but what I want to tell You is that I do not want a partner and most parents are couples. However, I really long to have a c... » Continue Reading
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Category: Movies, TV, Celebrities
Cartoons are the best thing in this godforsaken world. This year, I've already felt it three times. » Continue Reading
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Category: Dreams and the Supernatural
Disclaimer: I'm not a medical professional. I have a lot of medical knowledge, especially concering virology, but still this article is just a speculation. I'm writing it mainly because I want to study game studies and create an apocalyptic game someday. Rabies is one of the deadliest infectious diseases in the world, with a mortality rate close to 100%. This is mainly due to the fact » Continue Reading
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Category: Romance and Relationships
So, I most likely have BPD (professional opinion) and I can get some serious attachment issues. However, if someone hears about attachment issues, they usually thinking about romantic relationships only, but it's not exactly true. After my girlfriend broke up with me, my friend became very protective of me, often displaying signs of affection despite stating he just wants to be friends. This reall... » Continue Reading
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Category: School, College, University
Some people were acting weird about the fact I was seriously offended by what my PE teacher did back in 2023. But yet, I decided to get all of this out here to make peace with myself. Treat this blog as a tutorial how to NOT be a good teacher. For context, I was almost 18 (she knew about it). I was suffering from exercise bulimia, which made me work harder than any other student. I kept practicing... » Continue Reading
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