"for so long I've been nothing but a scope behind a rifle..."
he/him greek + roman
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Category: Life
well. i lowkey took 6 edible gummies like a day ago. got greened out. worst experience of my worthless life. everything in my room smells like vomit, i have to wash my bedsheets, couldnt eat anything without throwing it up for a while, couldnt even stand properly. had to go to five below and wendys yesterday and it literally felt like a dream and i barely even remember it. i just remember being so... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
you ever just look at someone and hate them so fucking bad that you want to take a gun and blow your brains out in front of them so they get permanently traumatized » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
losing interest in anything now. dont enjoy funger as much as i used to, dont enjoy omori, dont enjoy yttd, dont enjoy anything. nothing fuels me. no joy is brought to my life with anything. i just want to lay down and do nothing. i hate my life and everything around me. mmmm................. i dont know, maybe i should just get back into something i used to like. i am just talking about nonsense.... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
broke up with boyfriend over some stuff im not gonna talk about. i dont really want to think about it. i feel really bad about it because i really do love him. i dont think we ended off bad, but he wont talk to me. hasnt talked to me since. hes been hanging out with our other friend instead. im just hanging out with my two friends trying to distract myself from everything, but its like no matter w... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
tonight is bringing back old feelings i did not know i still had left in me. my mom got to drink wine today, and so she got drunk and then threw up in the toilet. didnt fucking flush and the toilet was just red and the whole upstairs smelled like wine. had to piss really fucking bad so i forced myself to use the bathroom with my nose covered. my room is right next to the bathroom and my parents ro... » Continue Reading
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Category: Religion and Philosophy
this is pretty random and i think one of the first times i actually make effort to talk about my religion rather than just writing a prayer. i am a hellenist, i was raised to be a hellenist, and i have always associated myself with hellenism. i abide by the spirit of Xenia. i like being in groups and stuff to make me feel more welcome. i sometimes use twitter to post about it, since none of my fri... » Continue Reading
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Category: Romance and Relationships
i dont really know if my boyfriend will see this since he hasnt talked to me about my spacehey recently, but im going to post this anyway since no one really reads this shit anyway. i might make it friends only though just in case. i have been with my boyfriend for 2 months, it will be 3 on the 20th. currently the 17th as im writing this. recently, a lot of things have been getting on my nerves. m... » Continue Reading
Category: Games
again im rambling about funger because i think about literally nothing else and i dont want to bother my friends, plus nobody reads these anyway so i have it all to myself. i love levi SO much it hurts me. i dont know why, i just think hes amazing. every time i see him i just want to cry and squeeze him and treat him gently and feed him and shake him. i was playing termina and i was planning on do... » Continue Reading
Category: Games
not a usual blog again, but i have nowhere else to talk about. why do people hate henryk so much? i think he is very neat, and admittedly he reminds me of my boyfriend. hes a 32 year old former artist and talented chef from rondon, has nothing about his lore or background which makes him mysterious, yet opens up a little about how he wanted to become a chef. worked at his parents' tavern by helpin... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
am i even real? is any of this real? am i alive? im not sure if i want to know. » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
it gets more and more difficult everyday to think of reasons to keep living. i dont even know what my current reason is. i guess i just cannot bring myself to do such a selfish thing. theres nothing wrong with my life. i have friends, i have a boyfriend, i have parents, what else do i ask for? it just feels like im living a lie everyday. my mom said shes gonna quit drinking and only drink on holid... » Continue Reading
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