ow ow ow ow ow OWWW ow ow it's okay my ankle is just super fucking swollen and it's too painful to fall asleep. but definitely within bearable levels. explanation: i was at a party. usually i hate parties because i always get left out. the people who invite me usually always have better friends than me to be around and the focus of the party usually becomes drinking and smoking, two things i don'... » Continue Reading
maybe this outfit was cooler in my head... - outfit - inverted (inside-out) miku tshirt very wrinkled blue and yellow flannel button-down shirt grey hooded jacket cargo jacket dark grey sweatpants left shoe: beige converse right shoe: black loafer grape necklace from that grape coat hanger i picked up off the side of the road grandma's coach handbag optional: t » Continue Reading
hey! i was challenged to a hat contest. as a fan of all things avante-garde, i decided to come up with something somewhat original. - the outfit - metal hat made from a steamer pot lined with a crochet beanie. miku sits on the hat. black trench coat grey/black psychedelic pattern buttonup blue/white floral pattern tie charcoal grey slacks black laced dress shoes joy and whimsy » Continue Reading
hey!! believe it or not, i actually enjoy going outside and touching grass. or rather, concrete. i live in a pretty suburban downtown area lol - photos - » Continue Reading
i wonder if i'll ever hit some sort of breaking point some sort of maximum capacity for all of this which forces an adverse reaction or dramatic change or if it the suffering just keeps layering over itself like piling sediment no sign of ending, just getting worse and worse this sounds like the more accurate description to me. » Continue Reading
hello spaceheyers, i spent some time today trying to become a walking vocoder needless to say, i accomplished this feat check out my singing (?) if you'd like. you kinda need to see the video to know what i'm saying, but here's how the rig works: the microphone is taped inside a reusable face mask (which also helps to prevent feedback) the mic c » Continue Reading
new year's resolution 1: learn to hardstyle dance new year's resolution 2: dress more like me - the outfit - necklace i made with a metal grape coat hanger i found on the street brown scapular (those who know) my lab safety glasses amazon wig burlington's striped sweater burlington's jacket black pleated skirt over charcoal slacks black laced dress shoes - pictures - » Continue Reading
i have accumulated places to hide in the face of change a space like this or a space like someone else's life or a space like intoxication or unconsciousness with all these escapades i suddenly become very reluctant to face a perceived struggle enough of this... i will do my homework now - thoughts at the end of a winter break [UPDATE] didn't do any of my late work instead ended » Continue Reading
woke up fidgety and anxious over every silly thought i sifted through and dismissed them all with the power of basic reasoning, but that didn't really stop the adrenaline drip which my brain had prescribed me. i tried sitting and thinking about something i wanted to do, but nothing manifested because i was so occupied with this lurking fear of everything. spent the day with half of myself dipped i... » Continue Reading
heeeeyyy soo... i was thinking about this one video i was obsessed with last year and then i realized that there's an array of early youtube videos of people dancing to the same nightcore track and i was like, this is awesome, i have to contribute my own. so i did. annnnd i showed the binder clip i used to make my shirt fit. kind of embarrassing but maybe it's a funny d » Continue Reading
tl;dr not all cops are bad people. but the police force as a whole only has one tool: force. most of the issues ("crime") cops deal with cannot be solved with force... their cause lies in systemic racism thereby perpetuating systemic racism. also, it is easy to become a cop for the wrong reasons, or with misconstrued notions of power and justice, or with heavy prejudices. being paid 6 figures to w... » Continue Reading
here is an attempt to extract the essence of my life and put it into words: i wake up. i confront the immense reluctance born from all the days before this one. i move through the day minute by minute, action by action, decision by decision, hit by hit. i prefer to call this 'existence'. it is the bare minimum » Continue Reading