hello!!! s been a while lol XP im gonna try to give you updates more often but idk my lifes been a rollercoaster :P.. soo where do i even begin?? maybe lets start by the fact i cant trust anyone for shit. theres not a SINGLE person in this earth who wont betray me in some typa way. Remember lucas? the new friend ive made, the july festival one. so. turns out he was calling me a bitchy asshole by... » Continue Reading
who r u all ive been scrollib thru my fren list n wooo u r all so cool !! like omg some of the rad rad hairz ive seen :0 soo if u wanna talk to me or smth IM me!! i can take a lil while to answer but i will sure b happy to talk to some new people n get to know u!!!!! also thx 4 the addz !! » Continue Reading
soo to start this blog, im in the last weekend of the winter recess, and at my friends house, we just had bbq as lunch and he bought me a plaid skirt and a new scene lil belt thats pink n white at a thrift store!! v cool. yesterday we ate some fries and went to bed late bc we spent the night playin wobbledogs, it was nice. now we r relaxing a lil and im watchin a lost media vid. not many updates ... » Continue Reading
well. remember the boy i was talking about? the one ive been trying to trust for almost a month now? the one ive told im non binary and i feel awful when someone refers to me as a girl? he told me yesterday that he still sees me as a girl. it hurt a lot. he told me that he really likes me and didnt wanna hurt me, I told him that he likes the version of me he created in his head. I dont feel like h... » Continue Reading
heyyyyyy hello hi i know its been a very long while,,,, but ive swapped schools and omg its such a cool new life!!! i have so many friends now and i think i may have a boyfriend?? theres this super cool cute looking guy who likes crystal castles and treats me like im the most precious thing he has ever put his hands on ,, i absolutely adore every minute i spend with him (also hes comfy, laying ... » Continue Reading
do yal remember the phone problem?? sooo it just stopped turnin on lol (criez) ngl i am rlly pissed abt it bc that battery was like 6 months old.. but it happens ig :/// and i changes schools, the new one is basically the pride parade so im preety happy and excited for tomorrow! ive made a lot of new friends there already n i hope the rest of the year goes smoothly.. not many updates besisdes tha... » Continue Reading
aight so lemme give u a sum up if the bad things happenin to me rn lost a close friend lost the guy i liked to said friend discovered that the entirety of my class hates me daily fights with mom maybe lost another friends and i have a real bad tummy ache rn sooo yeah things r not going smoothly but i have a june festival omorrow with my friend and i think ill go corpse bride like, » Continue Reading
Crying makes me feel too vulnerable, everything to me is like a "leave" cue. help me but dont, sadness is comfortable, even when ive sank so deep i feel like my life is due. I wish i had you here but know its not mutual, So instead i wish id disappear. because making you suffer with me would be just too cruel. » Continue Reading
i just really wanna bash my head against a truck tire rn.. my head is runnin a thousand miles per hour and its making me insane tbh... i cant stop being anxiois and its fucking my sleep up. its currently 3 am rn and my head hurts and ive been having a lot of harmful thoughts for the past 2 hours and i just cant shut my brain down and go to sleep. yesterdeay was supposed to be nice, i was supposed ... » Continue Reading
i can barely use my phone anymore, it dies at 70%. it feels more like an mp3 player than like a phone and its stressing me out. i cant call, i cant play music out of my earbuds, i cant play games or use tiktok, its just really boring and its making me sad :( id like a new phone but its soo expensive and im not even working rn. i guess its just the consequence of my past actions :/ » Continue Reading
well, if u hav read my last blog, i still havent talked to my mother properly lol, and i wont do it unless she apologizes. Besides that, im doing pretty fine compared to the previous week , so dats a improvement :) its gettin reeeealll cold around here and it tbh i dont really love it. i mean i like the cold but i cant wear my slutty clothes anymore, and wearing my high knee converses in baggy jea... » Continue Reading
okay so. its been 3 days since i actually talked to my mother. lets name her "K" kay? kay. so K and i have been very okay with each other since our last fight, and i actually thought it was gonna last (:/ ye) but like iour relationship been declining again for atleast a week now and it finally reached its breaking point this sunday. We were gonna go to my aunts house and i was getting myself ready... » Continue Reading