oh god y is earth so cruel

lost a close friend

lost the guy i liked to said friend

discovered that the entirety of my class hates me

daily fights with mom

maybe lost another friends

and i have a real bad tummy ache rn 

sooo yeah things r not going smoothly but i have a june festival omorrow with my friend and i think ill go corpse bride like,, maybe some corpse paint too? idk rlly.. ig thats the only good news for now. maybe ill get to smoke some weed too lol ive been needing to take my mind out of things :///

and my tummy is like rolling around in my belly i think im going to fade away into nothingness or turn into a pain monster ughh it hurtsss