Guilt, regret, and anger have all been my companions whenever I thought of aunt2 for the last five years. Ever since that fateful day in 9th grade, when she finally showed her true colors and stroke a fear in my 13-years old self's heart that I had never ever felt before, things have been different. That week was a huge turning point in my life. At 13, I was able to take a step back for a minute a... » Continue Reading
So, this is what people meant by good payoff. I'm a bit embarrassed that I wasn't able to write something about this as soon as it happened but I was so happy and tired that I was just kinda slumped since last Friday. But the presentation was a success. In fact, my teacher loved it so much, they wondered why it bombed in its first run. Rest assured none of it was my fault, just several terrible la... » Continue Reading
My family has always been tight-knit, or at least much more than most families. I didn't grow up with my immediate family since my father didn't have the means to raise me and my brothers after my mother died. So, my grandfather took me in. I was raised by my grandparents and aunts until the formers' deaths and now here we are. I still live with my aunts but since we're a small family we're close,... » Continue Reading
I have overestimated my abilities. While my grades are pretty good and by no means bad , they weren't enough to get me into the dean's list. I know I should be thankful to even have above average grades but the main reason why I wanted them to be that way was so I could get into the list. So, in a way, it feels like I've wasted all the time and energy I've put into this semester. I can't mope yet ... » Continue Reading
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J8VHA8HeK4Q I am honestly so lucky that I decided to listen to STAYC's bsides this afternoon on the ride home because I stumbled upon this beauty of a song during the exact time I would listen to something with its vibe: while the sun set. Whoever writes and produces STAYC's songs need to get a raise. Also the ones who think of their m » Continue Reading
Well, this is embarrassing. I've been posting blogs since April (I think) about how I'm finally going to be free of one of the shittiest group projects I've ever been in in the second week of June. Guess what? It's been three days since the final presentation for that project and I still have to make a redo of a large chunk of the powerpoint as well as the presentation itself because of its sheer ... » Continue Reading
I've lost my touch in writing. Or more accurately, lost it to all the academic papers that I had to write these last few weeks. The brain cells that would normally be allocated to my recreational writing have instead been pushed toward the path of "school shit" and have been going down that path ever since like a trickle of water following the trail of previous droplets. It's a depressing sight to... » Continue Reading
Why I believed this saying in the first place, I have no idea anymore. I guess it's one of those things that mean something entirely different once you grow older. So, let me introduce one of my arch enemies in life. The saying, "Money Can't Buy Happiness". Aka one of the biggest lies I've ever been told. As someone who grew up in a bit of a "rags 2 riches" type of family, money is a very sensitiv... » Continue Reading
I've done my first pencil sketch in months. I might go back to painting in watercolor too once college is over. But it's such a weird feeling. I've been drawing with a pen for the past few months now. It actually helped me to draw more precisely since I didn't have the convenience of erasing any mistakes. And so far, it was a great experience. Unfortunately, my trusty pen had finally run out of in... » Continue Reading
If I remember correctly, Tucker (my good for nothing school mate), was the topic of one of my first blogs. I haven't mentioned them in a long time, so I'm going to take this opportunity to do just that. It's just two weeks before my first year of college is finished and a week before the final presentation of the project where I'm grouped with Tucker. As expected, they haven't changed much since m... » Continue Reading
I just finished watching The Power of the Dog. I don't really have much to say about it. I thought it was a slow burn film that had a pretty straight forward plot. But after reading several comments and discovering the ending of the book, I have a few things to say. Nothing controversial, just my thoughts. I'm sympathetic to both the main characters, to be honest. Phil had a lot going on for him a... » Continue Reading
Since I was a kid, there are two songs by Josh Groban that have never left my head for some reason. The first is "Brave" and the other is "False Alarms". But as much as I love the first, I'm strangely attached to the second one. Even after my first listen when I was nine, there was something about the song that made me like it very very much. I think one of those reasons is the feeling that I get ... » Continue Reading