fathoming the unfathomable

As someone who grew up in a bit of a "rags 2 riches" type of family, money is a very sensitive topic in the household. I've been surrounded by people who knew how to handle their money as well as those who absolutely cannot. Thankfully, I was raised by the former. Despite this, I've had my moments of abusing money. Like I said, I was born into the family during its "riches" phase. That's not to say I was spoiled. My aunt worked very hard not to let that happen, though aunt2 is a whole other story.

Growing up, money became less and less of a trivial topic and now I've reached the point in my life that I finally realize just how much I abused my allowances. And because they're just allowances, I try not to think of my money as my money, if that makes any sense. In a way, I just view the cash that I get as something I am entrusted with but not named to me. So, my money is not entirely mine and can be taken away just as easily as it was given. That way of thinking has worked for me so far. I've begun saving more than before and spend more carefully now.

Overall, I think it's a nonsensical saying. At least if you live in the same economy I do where money is basically everything. I think it's not that good of a thing to live by or at least can't be labeled as something anybody can live by, because in reality, it is very much not the case.