"[♪] If you gotta leave tonight, could you take me with you?"
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Category: Life
lifes been getting better alright, actually. i finally found a source of life which is mc smps ive been hopping onto and [n actually staying], 2nd semester is finally done and im not worried anymore.. and im starting to limit my screentime. since ive been going on the pc for 4-5 hours, i see it appropriate that my phone screentime should be 1-2 hours. ive been also going to bed more early now! i ... » Continue Reading
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Category: Writing and Poetry
I have worshipped your every being your every word your every act your every breath let me feel what you gave me again and again progress it; advance further reciprocate what forbidden thoughts i have penetrate the barriers our minds molded for what is supposed to be "protection" rebel against your rationality let me feel the sin; indulge in it. have it seep from your bla » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
sometimes i realize how terrible of a person i can be i realize how rotten and disgusting i am and it may be something i can never change because its feels as though its molded into my heart. i wish to change but i cant really and i keep coming back to it for some reason like im crawling back » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
O how attachments pester me! just been a while since we met, I'm already attached, fixated. it feels so good and nice and all that, but also terrible! awful terrible. everytime your status blinks grey, it's like something gnawing in my heart, it pains me that I can't force your consciousness digital forever—But I am no irrational person, I refuse to be dictated by mere obsessions, it's stupid. But... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
i feel terrible again I swear it was getting better last week, i dunno, these quizzes and works got me stressed again. i feel so sleepy writing this but spacehey is really my only outlet. i dont know who to talk to, not even my own server because ive already vented multitude of times, i didnt want to be a negative burden to them, even if i think the server is dying. I feel like people have some s... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
I feel as though I have no purpose in life. It's not my fixed fate but it will be if I keep being an indecisive mutt, my dad thinks i should stream merely because im "pretty". But as much as I love him, I dont even think i am that good enough for people to look at. and he doesnt really think about anything past that, he said it himself. I'm just pretty, apparently. It's not that I hate how he thin... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
I have been at my lows and highs constantly. mostly lows. I have been indulging myself in things I shouldn't been indulging. My discord server brings me not the same joy as when it first started somewhat flourishing. I feel dirty, i feel like im covered in mud everytime those so called indulgences are finished. I feel so satisfied yet miserable after it and it sucks so much idk how i can stop it.... » Continue Reading
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Category: Pets and Animals
Fly high dirge. You were only with us for 1 week, I had you in the house for 1 week. 1 week until you passed away from a disease. I'm sorry i didnt treat you properly, for thinking you'd be fine outside due to your origins, for thinking you wanting to be outside is nothing of concern. I wish we had more time, i really do, i miss your goofiness, your clinginess. I remember when you first kept break... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
everytime he actually talks to me once in a blue moon i cant help but sink into what little attention they give me. especially if its some basic decency like "sure alright take ur time its good" thanks fuckface youre making my brain like you again like some stupid middleschooler i hate it and i love it because i see a glimpse of hope that maybe what was once us can rekindle except logic says it wo... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
My last blog centered on my inability to control my emotions, and ive made a promise to be very, very observant of my feelings when in a time of disstress. that time of distress happened again. My dad today was stern and told me to clean the table for dinner, and when i half-assed it, he yelled at me, not really yelled but he raised his voice and was quite pissed about it. i could feel myself bein... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
I have been very mean to a sibling of mine and i think i think i was justified, but my words were ill-chosen. I will watch my words next time, but not my reasonings because i have been bottling this disrespect of him for a while. Just to keep peace I think it's my fault at the same time, maybe i have been at fault for his emotional outbursts because i never taught him much on how to control his te... » Continue Reading
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Category: Books and Stories
in which most of my rambling is so offtopic i might as well be talking about astrology, at the time im writing this i am tweaking so apologies this whole discourse is asinine, both sides are right and wrong. yes fiction affects reality and can bring awareness to serious topics but no seeing andey and leyley kissing eachother will not alter your morals and make you think "ah yes i want to kiss my s... » Continue Reading
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