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sometimes i realize how terrible of a person i can be

i realize how rotten and disgusting i am 

and it may be something i can never change because its feels as though its molded into my heart. i wish to change but i cant really and i keep coming back to it for some reason like im crawling back like some dog

i am abominable i really am i need this feeling of dread to be torn away from me// i just want it gone i dont care if im wrong or right anymore