anger

I have been very mean to a sibling of mine and i think

i think i was justified, but my words were ill-chosen. I will watch my words next time, but not my reasonings because i have been bottling this disrespect of him for a while. Just to keep peace

I think it's my fault at the same time, maybe i have been at fault for his emotional outbursts because i never taught him much on how to control his temper, and so have mine. I am a tempered person and my words can be very hurtful because i let my emotions get the better of me. It's and uncontrollable habit i can have and its a thorn on my end. A little stray off the topic but i can always get easily frustrated at every little prevention, no matter how little the problem is, it is

I will try to watch my words, i will try to watch my emotions. I will watch myself

I don't wanna cause strained relationships 

I think i am the problem sometimes, i am being very emotional

And so ill try to better myself, ill explain myself to people and what problems i have, that are logical and understandable because thats good, i suppose. i am getting very fucking annoyed at this stupid goddamn typing space because everytime i hit enter it looks wrong, 

like this

and this

theres gaps between the fucking spaces i cant take it but ill try to be calm

I will be mindful of my actions towards my brother, because i am an older sibling and it is my responsibility to guide his emotional capacity and strength, i won't be unecessarily mean. I'll try not to, i swear.

It will all be fine, it always ends fine but it will be better if i do something.

For now, goodbye. im sorry if i am ill-mannered, i am in a very bad state composed of frustration regret and anger i am sorry once again, but especially sorry to my brother, mainly for acting somewhat immature

-steampunk015