This won't be nice to read nor write, but fuvk it. But reader digression is advised. There are always things that are difficult to admit to yourself, there's nothing around that. So as a briefing I used to be an alcoholic for 3 years between 7th and 9th grade, using alcohol to function on a daily basis mainly in school and social situations. About 3-4 years later after fighting myself out of alco... » Continue Reading
I live in Europe and the country I live in is one of the last ones that still has a law against breaking "religious peace" (straight translation). It basically makes it illegal to publicly disgrace or dishonour anything held sacred by a religion. Now it has come up that the law is wanted to be removed due to people seeing it's against their freedom of speech. Today on the radio someone said "How a... » Continue Reading
I've been interested in mathematics for over a decade, and it's gone so far that I can see mathematical patterns absolutely everywhere, especially in nature. It does make sense since everything around us is based in mathematics in one way or an other, but the more you see them the stronger the visuals are. There are days when I'm almost convinced that I've done acid or something only because how s... » Continue Reading
I hate everything about social media and digitalization. I could write a whole ass essay on how I absolutely despise social media, phones and overall the internet. Yes I know ironic, but have you ever thought about the state of internet nowadays? Lets start with social media, cause my god. Social media is designed to addict you and feed on your insecurities, just so they can market you products (... » Continue Reading
Quick rant This page will be do I can finally let out the way I am. Constantly needing to "tone it down" and "act normal" is fuvking annoying and exhausting. Needing to mirror people around me to not make them uncomfortable is a chore in on it's self. So I've decided to not censor shit here. Things will probably get pretty unhinged and unsettling for you but I don't care. Don't like it? Leave. It'... » Continue Reading
I finally managed to mostly clean my apartment after 3 months of doing absolutely nothing. It took me about 3 hours, bot now I can finally see my floor and am able to use my table. I still do have diches, vacuuming and stuff like that, but it's a good start for now. I'm so glad fall break has started, also on the Friday the 13th in the month where Halloween is, which is pretty cool. I absolutely ... » Continue Reading
I had been wondering why I was feeling so sick and why my hangover this morning was so bad and refused to go away. Come to find out I had been eaten moldy salsa while drunk without realizing and given my self food poisoning. Only realized when I actually smelled and looked at the thing. I haven't had food poisoning before so that's why I didn't I haven't fully decided if I wanna make it in to a "e... » Continue Reading