Today dad’s coming to pick me up. Yesterday wasn’t too bad, but the day before that felt like a waste. Yesterday I watched a lot of wife swap, and tried to find a completed collection list of all the chapstick flavors. My collection only had twenty or so, and it seems everytime I look it up, I find more I have yet to » Continue Reading
It feels like I’ve numbered my last entries wrong, because it feels much longer than four month since I’ve last posted. So much had happened since school started, I’ve been up and down and down and down so much. Right now it’s ok. Im at my grandparents for the holidays, and it’s alright, even though I get so irrationally angry while im here. All the time. But it’s a different house and that means ... » Continue Reading
Things have been getting better, for the most part. I’ve taken up friendship bracelet making, and i’ve grown clauses on my thumbs from it. I've always liked the idea of weaving. I’ve decided to take anti-depressants for the first time. They were prescribed to me last summer i think, and i’ve just had the bottle sitting around. It’s been good i think. I’ve noticed when i am happy, i smile really ha... » Continue Reading
School’s coming up again soon. I’m not ready for it. I really want to get to my classes this time, and not absolutely give up on my attendance. I wanna grow up, but i still feel like i’m walking without direction. It’s really hard to move with purpose i can’t find one, academically. There’s nothing to motivate me, and nowhere to go after senior year. Last school year was traumatizing for me i thin... » Continue Reading
Each time i come online, i like to check the daily tarot readings that one user posts. The thing is, usually there isn’t one yet posted for the day i’m checking. So i just instead look at yesterdays. “Sickness after an accident outside” was what yesterdays said; which is creepily accurate to what happened to me yesterday. That had to be the first time this guys cards have been pointedly accurate, ... » Continue Reading
Felt real sick today. Like real sick. Felt real nauseous, and real hot. Shouldn’t of eaten so much so quick. I didn’t eat anything at all yesterday, so when i ate so much today; guess my stomach got mad at me for it. Last episode of Interview with a Vampire comes out tomorrow. Other than that— i don’t really know much of what to say. I don’t really have anything going on ever. Guess that’s what i... » Continue Reading
Things have been different as of late. No more school, that’s for sure. Just this year. I think i’ll try to stop logging into instagram for a couple days; i hate seeing everyone else’s graduation photos, knowing i’m going to be repeating. I really do feel like a loser for that. I don't like thinking about it. It makes me feel doomed. I’ve been staying at my grandmothers for the past three weeks. I... » Continue Reading
Shyshy slept with me last night, shes my dog. She was good, never barked at all or woke me up at all throughout the night-- and day honestly; i slept in till 1pm. I finished New Moon last night, or atleast a rewrite of it. Someone on Ao3 rewrote the whole entire thing (132k words and all) so as Jacob would win over Bella, and the characters wouldn't be insane weirdos. Also minus the estranged raci... » Continue Reading
I didn't sleep much last night. Went to sleep at around 2am, but couldn't quite fall asleep for some time. Sometime later, i woke up again, then went back to sleep. My alarm went off at 6:20am, and i got up sometime around 7. Last time i went to school, i didnt have a good time. A couldnt hang out with me at much, i was tired and frustrated. I cried a bit in the morning, as i usually do-- then mar... » Continue Reading
I've been pretty not-busy for the past week or so. Ill get to that later though. I had a dream just now. I was at my grandmothers house, in attic or something like that. There were mainly little kids there, but a couple big kids. The little kids wore plastic bags over their heads. My brother was there. And some guys that i knew in the dream. We all sat in a attic room; infront of us, a book pedest... » Continue Reading
Tomorrows my birthday. Eighteen. I wonder how many books start off like that. My parents wouldn't be here tomorrow, or the day after that. They weren't here today either. Not their fault though, mine actually. Planned a quick trip to the beach for spring break, and eninvertantly; my birthday. I invited my friend to come, A. She said she was free, and i got super excited. But she found out she had ... » Continue Reading
I had a nightmare last night. To put it short; i was packing up my bag in my grandmothers house. A tall woman appeared in my room, and she was a stalker. I had to kill her in self-defense. There was a rack of shelves of glass sculptures that my grandmother collects, and i grabbed the woman, pushing and swinging her in that direction till she collided with it and it toppled over ontop of her: killi... » Continue Reading