08.20.24

Things have been getting better, for the most part. I’ve taken up friendship bracelet making, and i’ve grown clauses on my thumbs from it. I've always liked the idea of weaving. I’ve decided to take anti-depressants for the first time. They were prescribed to me last summer i think, and i’ve just had the bottle sitting around. It’s been good i think. I’ve noticed when i am happy, i smile really hard. I think the first time it really kicked in, was when i was driving home with a baja blast and imogen heap on the radio. Though that could have just been because i got a baja for the first time in awhile. I really fucking love baja blasts.

I’ve been pretty obsessed with Twilight again. Wish i didn’t live in such a hot state, then i’d be able to wear Bella’s wardrobe accurately. I’ve gained an obsession with the mountains, pine trees and the sand hills. I think that’s me kinda reclaiming some appreciation for the south, the sand hill area. I just love it. Tall pine trees and pine cones doting the ground, with sparse grass and large patches of sandy dirt. Lots of sand. I love it. And i love those super realistic looking museum exhibits that show a habitat and all the animals in it. If that’s a well paying job, i’d love to be in the field that makes those.

Schools starting again soon, and i’ll be going home. Part of me is dreading school still, and the other part is hoping with the combination of a new wardrobe, a new medication, and my brother being out of the house for good— i’ll be able to muscle though this year. But probably not.