I've come to realize how sexual everything is nowadays, whether it's about a fictional character, a real person, or even a fucking object, it seems like the only opinion people can have about stuff is how they wish they could ride it, eat it or whatever the fuck. It's so repetitive it's boring. It's not that im a prude, i have eyes, but it seems to me that everything revolves around sex and sexual... » Continue Reading
So, I want to start reading again because it's been a while since my last book and i can feel my brain rusting from the disuse. I would love if someone could recommend me some books to read, i'm particularly interested in books about loneliness and/or depression since i want to read a story i can relate to (lol). The shorter the better (uni is starting soon and won't have much time to read). Thank... » Continue Reading
I feel like in a way i'm destined to always be the third wheel, the friend who walks behind the group because there's no space on the sidewalk for the three of us. I've always been part of three member friend groups but i've never actually felt * part * of them, more like an afterthought. I'm way too aware of the group dynamics and understood from early on that it's not exactly a trio but more lik... » Continue Reading
Quick update of my life so far! Lots of stuff happened since my last post, my friends throwed a surprise birthday party for me and I had a wonderful day. I felt truly happy wich was like a lighthouse in a storm. I'm glad for my friends, they always make my day a bit brighter. I belive that every universe in wich I didn't meet them my life is just a little bit more sad. Directly after that I volunt... » Continue Reading
Happy bday to me! My birthday always makes me inexplicably depressed, but if i had t cheer myself up I would tell myself that we made it thru another year despite everything, that i'm stronger than what I give myself credit for and always try my best even if internally I just want to cry all the time. Despite how much you hate me I'm glad we're still alive. » Continue Reading
Yesterday my (fav) thesis proff said that she saw me on twitter posting some AUs I made for my OCs and mentioned that she would like to hear their full story ! Which left me flabbergasted honestly, it may be because I've been working on it for so long that to me it just seems plain and boring. The thesis has been very mind opening in that regard because it forced me to look at the story as if I di... » Continue Reading
Haven't have time to do anything other than work on my thesis, which is going really well but has proven to be extremely tiring, I often find myself working on something for much longer than I would've 1 year ago. I don't feel all that bad about it since i know i've been working relentlessly for months and it's bound to exhaust me entirely if i don't take it slow, still I can't help but to feel ju... » Continue Reading
Hi everyone! Back here again! So, some stuff has happened, mostly just me spiraling down depression once again. And also i'm watching Attack on Titan WHICH BY THE WAY ITS AMAZING, but that's unrelated to the point I'm trying to make. (There is no such point I'm just rambling) Despite the fact that me drowning in a cup of water is more common than green grass, for some reason this one specific time... » Continue Reading
So basically, i have some friends who really want to have an intimate partner and while it's fun to make the "haha we're such virgins" jokes it's getting a bit... uncomfortable????? Not that my friends themselves make me feel like that at all, I just never really liked talking about sex or desiring a partner. It's been a year since i broke up with my gf and i think at this point i feel like i shou... » Continue Reading
FINISHED IT!! ( o ˘◡˘ o ) Aaah I still gotta do some more stuff but at least I got this one done alredy. The rest shouldn't take long either ヽ(ー_ー )ノ Hope » Continue Reading