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unruly boy who will not grow
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Category: Writing and Poetry
i just keep loving despite it all. its hard not to fall inlove, its hard not to want. it keeps failing you and you keep failing it. so embarrassing, so honest. i have gaps in my memory, the scenes come in snippets. i dont remember. its so distant, everythings so distant. you still think about me. i remember watching you leave, walking home, crying. i dont know if it would be as good as our dreams... » Continue Reading
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Category: Romance and Relationships
i saw you in a dream, we were in a waterfall. i think about you lately. its never going away. i wish i could talk with you again. nothing would change, i dont even have anything worth saying, i just miss you so much. i miss you, i miss us. this feeling sucks, being away, being elsewhere, doing other things. i know where my heart belongs, i think i know where ill end up one day, back to you. maybe ... » Continue Reading
Category: Writing and Poetry
i lay in the back seat with my head against the car door i imagine you caressing me lovingly, kissing my jaw, through the trees passing shades, the sun making funny shapes under my lids i wanna lay with you by the lake, i wanna walk by the river where you contemplate it all i cant take your expression out my mind no matter what you say or do to me, no matter what, i keep coming back to the message... » Continue Reading
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Category: Romance and Relationships
hello everybody! i was referring to this friend of mine in earlier posts. hes switching schools, how awesome! he hadnt talked to me in two days, i thought something happened to him, but no he just threw that bomb right at me. im just so happy, feeling so great. yesterday night i called him up after he said that and yea, he wouldnt pick up and an hour had already passed of me sobbing on the balcony... » Continue Reading
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Category: Romance and Relationships
i have a friend, were more than friends, we like eachother but he has very deep rooted internalized homophobia. he says he used to discriminate gay people and that he cant believe hes come to this now, he says im the first and only thought he has before and after he wakes up and he also says that if his family knew about this theyd kill him. he seems to really wanna appeal to his father, he doesnt... » Continue Reading
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Category: Writing and Poetry
i see the way you look at me. sometimes, your voice comes out my mouth when you're away, same cadence, your mannerisms too. sometimes i miss you so much i can hardly stand it. and when i watch these kind of movies, i feel close to you again. sometimes you're like coffee, sometimes you're like warm milk. are you afraid? i know i am. let your guard down, you're tired, longing. one day, i promise you... » Continue Reading
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Category: Writing and Poetry
i just wanna be with her and put my nose to her hair and bury myself in her bones and turn so small i can stay in her pocket and be with her all the time. i wanna hug her like its my last one, i wanna look back and see her looking back, i wanna run with her through the crowd like i did in dreams, i wanna see her in all white. its all a dream, its all a dream, a year full of dreams and absolute bli... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
i had a poetry class which was pretty cool, some writers visited us and we talked ab lots of interesting stuff, although my narrow headed classmates were being too disregarding and just horribly embarrassing. i wish the weather was a bit colder here, i also wish i had a muffin right now. my cats sitting on my chair just staring into nothing, thats all he ever does. i wonder what he thinks about al... » Continue Reading
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Category: Friends
im just posting this cuz i want to friend people who are actually using this consistently and posting stuff cuz friending random profiles just feels so stupid and irrelevant to me.i love reading blogs n whatever so friend me if u will! :-D » Continue Reading
Category: Music
i think anyone who says the beatles arent that good are just trying to ragebait (and it works). saying ''the beatles are overrated'' is like saying the sky is blue. sometimes things are overrated for a reason, like stairway to heaven for example is an exceptional song! when you actually really like something it never gets old. and the best thing about the beatles is that they have tons of stuff, s... » Continue Reading
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Category: Romance and Relationships
"oh but dont mention love, id hate the pain of the strain all over again" i have this strange feeling that i just cant ignore anymore, it hurts so much to know itll most likely be this way forever, yet i wanna jump the gap, and if i fall, i fall. everytime its like somethings stu » Continue Reading
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Category: Parties and Nightlife
sometimes i feel like superman. like when i take off my glasses i jus become this raging alcoholic, i feel like nobody really knows me til i start spazzin out. i walk all day and sometimes come through as innocent n closed-off but lowk im a freak. i get away with most things cuz im never suspected and its actually kinda practical. nobody really knows how fruity i am, not like it matters but im fee... » Continue Reading
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