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I'm head over heels❤️
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Category: Writing and Poetry
My boy has eyes of seasons, Who's pigment change is quite sublime From fall, to winter, to angered spring, Contorted by what tomorrow may bring Controlled only by space and time My boy has eyes of summer, Burning with passion of love and light A pool of radiant, sun-kissed, refreshing joy And nights filled with spontaneous deploy, A gold aura, mellow and bright My boy has eyes of aut » Continue Reading
Category: Romance and Relationships
I so badly regret ever telling him that I wanted him to leave. That I wanted him to go pursue education and do what was best for himself, because I knew he would enjoy reaping the benefits in the future. The last few nights I've wished that I would've begged him to stay when he mentioned the concept of it. That I would've gotten down on my knees and pleaded he wouldn't go, just so I could continue... » Continue Reading
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Category: Romance and Relationships
I kissed him for the first time last Thursday. Not the usual way, not the way we've kissed consistently since that first time he placed his hands on my face in May. This time I kissed him with my whole self. With everything in my soul begging to be merged into his as effectively as possible. I've always teased myself with a jittery tongue whenever his lips touched mine, but I let something slip si... » Continue Reading
Category: Romance and Relationships
God I miss him. I cannot describe how much my heart deteriorates after I leave him. He is the most amazing and outstanding person I've ever met, and I hate myself for being unable to see him so much more. I hate myself for not practicing driving, or for still being to afraid to illegally drive for hours on the freeway just to go see him, as I know no police officer would consider me a child from j... » Continue Reading
Category: Romance and Relationships
My love, My heart is filled with the butterflies that remind me of you each day as the weeks go by until we see each other once again. I cannot peer even once around my room without being reminded of you. Your smile, your laugh, the way you hold me so dearly. I cannot ignore the references that sit amongst me of you, and although they make you feel so close, they enhance even more the reality tha... » Continue Reading
Category: Romance and Relationships
Dear my love, In a metaphorical sense, God could not describe how I miss you. I intend to cause no discomfort to you by saying this, but I am so lonely. I am completely incomplete without you. I hear you, speak to you, and spill my feelings to you every day, but I cannot truly see you. I cannot look up and be greeted by your face. I cannot reach my shaking hands out and let you hold them. I canno... » Continue Reading
Category: Romance and Relationships
The past few days that have gone by with us together have been nothing short of ecstasy. I love him, and I love hearing him admit to loving me. He is more comfortable sending me photos now, and I love saving them. All of this has been amazing, but I hate the discomfort of missing him. I hate the loneliness. Although his voice helps, there still is such a sense of rue that I have when I am not wit... » Continue Reading
Category: Romance and Relationships
{I need to stop thinking} Dude, I love him so much. I'm unable to work because I am just to happy. I have paper after paper which is due soon and I can't help but attempt to type up a serious essay about the "the historical change in diagnostic criteria for psychotic disorders" or some other shit like that, and then start randomly laughing with a dumbass grin on my face from the thought I'm his no... » Continue Reading
Category: Romance and Relationships
Well its finally happened, We're officially dating now and I don't believe I could be any happier. He is fucking amazing and there's nothing I'll ever want to change about him. I love everything he's ever done for me and everything he will do. I can only blame myself for why we hadn't been together earlier. The amount of shit that I misunderstood makes me hate my existence but I can't exactly do ... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
8/11/22 Today was an emotional mess. I'm only writing this because my tendency to overthink is driving me insane and keeping me awake deep into the AM. I've been flooded with a crash of memories from years ago and things just keep resurfacing in my mind. I feel selfish for thinking about feeling selfish because only non-selfish people are self aware and I know I am not one of them. I feel as if th... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
8/5/22🦋 People tend to try and ignore relapse, framing it as a self-absorbed evil thing to do. Its been years and I still cannot grasp what mindset one would need to be in to believe that giving into a hard and painful addiction, even after trying so hard to not because you don't want to upset the people around you, is a selfish act. Relapse is not a death sentence. It doesn't mean that everythin » Continue Reading
Category: Life
8/3/22 {there isn't much context here, just typing word vomit so interpret this entry how you will}. Everyone whom I talk to wants a straight answer on whether I like him or not. If I'd want to date him. I only associate dating with one vile, vomit worthy person so i didn't want to have to think about the situation much, but I think typing my conclusion will help me get things straight. I do not » Continue Reading
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