Blog #6

Well its finally happened, 

We're officially dating now and I don't believe I could be any happier. He is fucking amazing and there's nothing I'll ever want to change about him. I love everything he's ever done for me and everything he will do. I can only blame myself for why we hadn't been together earlier. The amount of shit that I misunderstood makes me hate my existence but I can't exactly do that in a perfect conscience because I know he'd hate it. I just love him so fucking much, there's not much else I can say now but I'm sure I'll elaborate later. I never want to be far from him again now despite that being inevitable. I want to live in his embrace. I want to wake up every morning with him literally by my side. I want to cook for the holidays and hear him tell everyone what an amazing wife he has. I want to be able to look back on whatever life we've built together and be completely satisfied because we did it alongside each other. I want to hold his face in my hands and tell him how much I love him. I want to stare into his eyes for so long that I forget I have a soul. I want to run my hands through his hair for hours while we watch movies because he knows I won't pull it. I want to hide myself in his arms every now and then and just cry, knowing that he won't make me tell him why or explain. And I want to see him heal, to let me wipe the tears from his cheeks because he trusts that I won't think any less of him for crying. I want to hug him to the extent that my arms will reach at midnight and tell him everything will be ok when it seems like the world is ending. I never want him to feel unwanted or lonely again. I never want him to feel like he doesn't have someone to fall back on. He does, and I love him.