i have not had a post op journal moment for 5 days. i have been very lazy! on thursday i ran errands with a friend. on friday i went into town and got a manicure, a sweet treat and applied for a credit card, a perfect balance of adult tasking (after six months of being beaten down into getting one) :) it's nice to take a couple slooooow days. really savor them. then get back into the swing of thin... » Continue Reading
good news: recovery is going well. i have completed my final papers and will soon wash my hands of my crazy study abroad program. to write these papers in two days, i'd hotbox my car in the parking lot of the public library and then force myself to write until i was coming down enough to drive home. i also used a strategy of making dinner plans with a friend so i'd have a deadline for a full day ... » Continue Reading
from the vault song sorter i had a little blog in my drafts saying that not all from the vault sections of taylor swift albums are created equally and i wanted to rank vault sections of taylor's version albums. but that's really obvious (red > speak now > fearless). so since this is an easier way of doing it, i will also be taking it very seriously. listening to every song again and offerin » Continue Reading
i have mentioned studying abroad in italy a couple times. i was there from the middle of may to the middle of june doing two courses on medieval history. after the program, two final papers were assigned. however, our professor had forgotten to return some of our notebooks that she had graded before it was time to fly home. she mailed them around the 19th of june. the group of us without notebooks... » Continue Reading
family stuff! off the grid! fifteen straight minutes of steep unpaved mountain road that you feel every second of in ur tits! so the vague 'family stuff' was a ceremony held by colleagues of my father's departed parents at an environmental institute they helped build. my father is the youngest of four sons and it was nice to see everyone. almost everyone in the immediate family made it, the only o... » Continue Reading
things going well, post-op appt yesterday was good. short and sweet and got the tails of stitches all trimmed up and i feel less like a build-a-bear about it. it was such a weird feeling to have the tail of this stitch right in the center of my chest, eugh. going out of state and off the grid this weekend to do some family stuff. didn't even need tylenol yet today, everything is feeling pretty ok... » Continue Reading
1 week!!!! yaay!!!!! most memorable part of the day was my sister saying she'd take me wherever i wanted to go for dinner cause i'm not cleared to drive yet with both our parents were out and then her proceeding to sleep through the entire evening and making myself a turkey sandwich. » Continue Reading
i watched so much of this show sober that watching it baked is a good reminder of how delusional it is. it was such a wonderful experience. i must recount it. there's a few angles i want to come at this with, but i should give some context first. so i started my t-break when i went to italy for a school trip in mid-may. pot's illegal in italy but lucky for me, an upcoming surgery that i needed to ... » Continue Reading
doing these little online journals has been really nice and a way to ground myself and remind myself of the progress i'm making after such a major surgery. :-) i had a sleepover with a friend who came to visit yesterday and while i was lying awake at 1am, intensely jealous of her being able to sleep on her side and stomach, i had a little moment of "aww, no journal for day 5" but never fear. i can... » Continue Reading
still in bed about 70% of the day. still sooooo tired and sooooo bored and unable to focus on anything super long bc i'm just so sluggish. tiktok and those live videos of the hamster gyms are my best friend at this point. in good news, i left the house today with my family for lunch. by the end was i falling asleep and kind of shaking? yes. that's between me and god. it was nice to get out of the ... » Continue Reading
another harrowing day recovering like the bravest girl on the planet. watched the f1 qualifying in silverstone in the morning, which is also the first time i've sat somewhere not my bed or in the car since surgery. none of the house pets come up in my room so it was nice to spend some time with them downstairs » Continue Reading
stillness and sleep. feeling tired and bored. not much to do. achy. slow and steady wins the race gets the recovered boobs. is the blegh feeling radiating thru the screen? i hope it is. i just feel unmotivated and bloated and laggy. fun times. my family's been accommodating and helpful when i can voice it. that's when you remind yourself: this was a huge surgery. the recovery period's gonna be rou... » Continue Reading